Friday 31 December 2004

nice passage + some thoughts...

Just read a passage from Sin Chew Daily, had alot of thoughts after reading this, wanna share with everyone …

我們所能承受的失去 – 蔣瑄 (Sin Chew Daily, 30/12/2004)

年輕男女,對於分手這件事,總是很看不開的。我想這個道理很容易理解,不是常有人說,有錢人反而比一般人小氣許多。因爲擁有太多的人,特別害怕失去。

前陣子,跟一個偏愛好萊塢片的朋友去看了電影《靈魂的重量》(英文片名:21 Grams),朋友看到不耐煩地頻頻看表,我卻看得津津有味。

這部電影的故事是這樣,一位等不到心臟移植就要等死的數學教授;一位婚前縱慾嗑葯,婚后平靜幸福的家庭主婦;以及一位改過自新,信仰虔誠的前科犯,原本不相干的三個人,當前科犯不小心開車撞死了家庭主婦的老公,數學教授因而等到了救命的心臟,三條綫因而匯聚在一起。片中的主角不是瀕臨死亡,就是面臨親近他們的人死去,死亡推動著他們的生命,而透過死亡,他們也領悟生命。

接近死亡那一刻

劇中以男主角躺在病床上說的話,與片名首尾呼應:“他們說,在每個人死亡的那一刻,體重會減少21公克。但是我們能活幾次?我們又能死幾次?21公克究竟有多重?那是5枚鎳幣,一條巧克力的重量,一只蜂鳥的重量。”

21公克,究竟是多重呢?或許比我們想象中輕盈一些,但是我們的身體因爲多了這21公克,而承載了多少的重量呢?恐怕比我們想象中沉重許多。

這部前二分之一使用時空交錯插敘的手法,交叉,重復又顛倒的敍述,容易讓習慣看好萊塢綫性敍述的觀衆混亂,然而最後的結果,的確令人讚嘆。

不是嗎?我們的真實生活從來也不是好萊塢喜劇,而生命也不會永遠照著我們的意思走去。我們一無所有來到人間,因爲有了靈魂所以想要愛與被愛,擁有愛情,讓我們覺得人生豐富,但是當失去了所愛的人,我們變成行屍走肉,不知道爲什麽應該繼續生活?

我們有靈魂,有感覺,所以受盡折磨。

許多年前,臺灣發生清大女研究生因爲無法接受男友同時與自己的女同學交往,憤而毆打同學並殺害致死,甚至自行調配王水毀尸滅跡。後來又發生年輕富有的男小開向愛慕的美麗少女表白不成,砍了176刀殺死她以洩憤。或者科學園區英俊高薪的男工程師因爲無法接受女友要求分手,於是化身電梯之狼,侵害其餘女性……這些案例過去都是震驚社會,連續多日停留在社會版頭條的大新聞,現在大家聽到類似的情況也已經不再過度討論與關心,因爲相同情境太多,只是情節輕重不同。

美好條件令人迷失

我們羡慕高知識分子,富有或美貌的人,因爲我們覺得條件好的人等於擁有全世界,同時他們本身也如此認爲,結果美好的條件反而令人迷失了。

不論條件好不好,我們都會愛人,也會被愛,會受到挫折,也會遇到傷害。最後我們會發現,原來幸福這件事跟條件好不好沒有絕對的關係,因爲每個人都會得到,也會失去,在得到中我們消失了什麽?在這消失中,我們又得到了什麽?反覆思索的過程,便是真實的人生。

那部電影中有一句對白,十分耐人尋味。“兩個人會相遇,有著很複雜的數學問題。”人與人之間的關係;愛情,死亡與靈魂;消失與得到的算計;我們所能承受或不能承受的痛苦……全都是不可衡量的重量。

不管喜不喜歡,我們的人生都無法逃避這些重量,在每一次得到中反省失去,在每一次的失去中變得堅強。不是嗎?這樣的人生才精彩啊,精彩的人生讓我們更愛自己。有一天回頭去看,那些從前以爲不能承受的失去,原來是我們真正活過的證明。

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Well, like this passage very much. and also because of this, I really yearn to see the movie mentioned ” 21 grams “, maybe I can get some great points from it. But somehow, no one knows about this movie …

How much does I really get and how much does I lose ? today I have a great daddy, who can provide me to further my studies and after I graduate I’ll be able to make big money, so that means I GAINED alot, right ? but because of what I gained, I have to sacrifice my freedom, freedom of making friends, freedom of meeting my friends, freedom of making myself more independent. I know I am a very dependent girl, I can’t imagine what will I be after I leave my family ? but is that my fault ? is that my fault that I can’t even know how to take bus ? is that my fault that I can’t even make decision on how many bottles of shampoo I should buy ? everytime when I want to make a decision, I have to think the ” VERY IMPORTANT” question : Will I get scolded because of that ? will I get scolded if I took the wrong bus ? will I get scolded if I came out from my own place 1 minute late ? will I get scolded if I took 4 bottles of shampoo while my dad wanted to make it 6 ?

There is no real true or false in my life, there is no right or wrong in my life, there’s only getting scolded or not getting scolded. I am tired of it, really ……

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Summary of 21 grams, 3 different versions

This is the story of three gentle persons: Paul Rivers (Penn) an ailing mathematician lovelessly married to an English emigré (Gainsbourg), Christina Peck, an upper-middle-class suburban housewife, happily married and mother of two little girls, and Jack Jordan (Del Toro), an ex-convict who has found in his Christian faith the strength to raise a family. They will be brought together by a terrible accident that will change their lives. By the final frame, none of them will be the same as they will learn harsh truths about love, faith, courage, desire and guilt, and how chance can change our worlds irretrievably, forever.

The lives of three people are drawn together when loving housewife Cristina Peck (Watts) is forced to suffer the loss of her husband Michael and their two daughters, killed in a hit-and-run by born-again ex-con Jack Jordan (Del Toro). Paul Rivers (Penn), a college professor dying of heart failure, becomes the recipient of Michael’s transplanted heart and is drawn to Cristina out of the debt of life owed to her husband. Their connection affects irreparable change in the lives of all three, and through their experiences they will find hope, despair, and redemption.

Life has a way of coming up with resonant metaphors, incredible ironies, and surprising coincidences.Chained to death’s door, Paul receives the gift of life, only to surrender it so that another can go on.A devastating event in the present forces Christina to return to her past and reject her future.Trapped by his spiritual mission, Jack carries such great guilt that hope and redemption seem beyond possibility.At the crossroads of life and death, all three collide in a whirlwind of revenge and forgiveness.21 Grams is the weight we lose when we die, the weight carried by those who survive.21 Grams: the gravity of life.

靈魂有沒有重量,根據科學家研究的結果,有,而且大約21公克。這輕如鴻羽的靈魂雖然看不見也摸不著,卻讓人承受不住、無法負荷。「靈魂的重量」(21 Grams)以三個家庭作為骨幹,透過主角們的意外糾葛,探討人性的複雜情感、怨懟仇恨、反省救贖。

西恩潘的角色為罹患心臟疾病的數學教授,他的婚姻生活並不順遂,但妻子依然有情有義地陪在身旁,並未在他生命的低潮離去,而且還想透過試管嬰兒孕育新生命,延續二人的婚姻,最後卻在丈夫完成心臟移植之後選擇離去。納歐蜜華茲則是飾演一位擁有二位女兒家庭幸福的主婦,因為車禍意外失去了女兒與丈夫,此後她開始喀藥、沉淪,生活變得一團亂,在最低潮時因為西恩潘的介入,讓她如同在溺斃前抓住一根浮木般地找到可依靠的支柱。奧斯卡金像獎得主班尼西歐岱托羅,飾演浪子回頭的虔誠教徒,因為駕車意外撞死納歐蜜華茲的先生與一雙女兒,雖然受到法律制裁入監服刑,但是依然無法抹去他心中的陰影。三個人就在這樣的背景裡,背負責任、相互糾纏.

劇中西恩潘所接受的心臟,恰好是納歐蜜華茲先生所捐贈,因此他刻意接近納歐蜜華茲想要為她做些什麼,但卻愛上她,最後不只失去自己的家庭,也因為無法幫納歐蜜華茲復仇,意圖結束自己的生命;納歐蜜華茲沉淪墮落,在得知西恩潘就是獲贈心臟的受益者時,一時無法承受將西恩潘趕出家門,後來也因為西恩潘的痴情等候而接受他。二人計劃復仇卻在即將成功之際,卻因為懦弱與器官的排斥現象發作,因而功虧一簣並引來反撲,最後因為西恩潘的自戕,停止了所有爭端。

導演刻意使用手持攝影機,塑造出類似紀錄片形式風格,根據導演阿利安卓的說法︰這樣會讓影片更有彈性,也更具有敘事風格。事實的確如此,這樣的拍攝風格讓觀賞者有在聽故事的感覺,反倒不像在「看」電影。透過瀕臨死亡的主角與劇情鋪陳,我們可以感受到生命與生命之間存在的微妙氛圍,並對生命有更進一步的省思與領悟。

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