Thank you for your time -- Thanks yonghau ^^

A young man learns what's most important in life from the guy next door.

It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man. College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way. In fact, Jack moved clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams. There, in the rush of his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and nothing could stop him.

Over the phone, his mother told him, 'Mr. Belser died last night. The funeral is Wednesday.'

Memories flashed through his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood days.

'Jack, did you hear me?'

'Oh sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It's been so long since I thought of him. I'm sorry, but I honestly thought he died years ago,' Jack said.

'Well, he didn't forget you. Every time I saw him he'd ask how you were doing. He'd reminisce about the many days you spent over 'his side of the fence as he put it,' Mom told him.

'I loved that old house he lived in,' Jack said.

'You know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you had a man's influence in your life,' she said.

'He's the one who taught me carpentry,' he said. 'I wouldn't be in this business if it weren't for him. He spent a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important...Mom, I'll be there for the funeral,' Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser's funeral was small and uneventful. He had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom stopped by to see the old house next door one more time. Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time. The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every picture, every piece of furniture....Jack stopped suddenly.

'What's wrong, Jack?' his Mom asked.

'The box is gone,' he said.

'What box?' Mom asked.

'There was a small gold box that he kept locked on top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside.. All he'd ever tell me was the thing I value most,' Jack said. It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser family had taken it.

'Now I'll never know what was so valuable to him,'Jack said. 'I better get some sleep. I have an early flight home, Mom.'

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died.Returning home from work one day, Jack discovered a note in his mailbox. 'Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the main post office within the next three days,' the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his attention. 'Mr. Harold Belser' it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope. Jack's hands shook as he read the note inside. 'Upon my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett. It's the thing I valued most in my life.'

A small key was taped to the letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes,! Jack carefully unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch. Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing, he unlatched the cover. Inside he found these words engraved: 'Jack, Thanks for your time! - Harold Belser.'

'The thing he valued most...was...my time.'

Jack held the watch for a few minutes then called his office and cleared his appointments for the next two days. 'Why?' Janet, his assistant asked.

'I need some time to spend with my son,' he said.'Oh, by the way, Janet...thanks for your time!'

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,' ^ ^

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much that they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.

4. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

5. You mean the world to someone.

6. If not for you, someone may not be living.

7. You are special and unique.

8. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you trust God to do what's best, and wait on His time, sooner or later, you will get it or something better.

9. When you make the biggest mistake ever,something good can still come from it.

10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look; you most likely turned your back on the world.

11. Someone that you don't even know exist, loves you.

12. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

13. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know and you'll both be happy.

14. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.



To everyone who read this:
'Thank you for your time.'

不必在乎我是誰

我覺得有點累　我想我缺少安慰
我的生活如此乏味　生命像花一樣枯萎
我整夜不能睡　可能是因為煙和咖啡
如果是因為沒有人陪　我願意敞開心扉

幾次真的想讓自己醉　讓自己遠離那許多恩怨是非
讓隱藏已久的渴望隨風飛　喔～忘了我是誰
女人若沒人愛多可悲　就算是有人聽我的歌會流淚
我還是真的期待有人追　何必在乎我是誰

我想你說的對　寂寞使人憔悴
是寂寞使人心碎　戀愛中的女人纔美
我想我做的對　我想我不會後悔
不管春風怎樣吹　讓我先好好愛一回

幾次真的想讓自己醉　讓自己遠離那許多恩怨是非
讓隱藏已久的渴望隨風飛　喔～忘了我是誰
女人若沒人愛多可悲　就算是有人聽我的歌會流淚
我還是真的期待有人追　何必在乎我是誰

幾次真的想讓自己醉　讓自己遠離那許多恩怨是非
讓隱藏已久的渴望隨風飛　請你忘了我是誰
女人若沒人愛多可悲　就算是有人聽我的歌會流淚
我還是真的期待有人追　何必在乎我是誰

我想我做的對　我想我不會後悔
不管春風怎樣吹　讓我先好好愛一回

.d.e.t.n.i.o.p.p.a.s.i.d

shi wo men dou zhang da le ma?
ru guo shi zhe yang
ke bu ke yi zai hui dao xiao shi hou na duan shi guang?

cong lai dou mei you xiang guo yao du zhan ni yi ge ren
yin wei wo zhi dao
dao zui hou pei ni zou de yi ding bu shi wo
er shi ni de jia ting
lao po hai zi
eo zhi shi xiang yao wei chi he yi qian yi yang de gan jue
zhe yang zhen de hen nan ma ?

shi wo tai chi dun le
hai shi zhen de shi zui jin cai fa sheng de shi
wo men zhi jian mei you hua shuo le
cong jia li dao gong zuo de di fang
zheng zheng er shi fen zhong de che cheng
wo men jing ran yi ju hua ye mei shuo
wo hao tao yan zhe yang de gan jue
shi zen yang?
wo shi cheng ke ni shi si ji ma ?

ye xu shi wo tai xi guan bei shou chong ai le
dan shi wo zhen de mei you yao qiu ni
ba wo dang cheng shi ni sheng huo zhong de quan bu a
wo men de guan xi bu shi ying gai wu ke qu dai de ma?
zen me wo gan jue wo men liang ge jian xing jian yuan le ??

zai guo ji nian
deng wo wan quan du li le
wan quan ke yi zi ji kai che qu bie de ding fang
wo men shi bu shi hui lian zhe jin cun de
cheng ke he si ji de guan xi dou mei you le

suo yi dao shi hou
wo hui cheng wei ming fu qi shi de "du sheng nv" le
shi zhe yang ma?

ren jia dou shuo
tong nian de shi guang shi mei hao de
yin wei shen me dou bu xu yao fan nao
er wo ne ?
zui xiang nian de
bu shi bu xu yao gong zuo de na duan shi guang
er shi wo hai you liang ge ge ge de na duan shi guang

xian zai ne..
da ge zou le
er ge ye yao bu jian le ...
jiu zhi sheng xia wo yi ge ren le ....
jiu zhi you wo yi ge...

wo zhen de hen ji mo ...
wei shen me dao tou lai jiu zhi you wo yi ge ?
mei you xin de ren zai wo de sheng ming zhong ting liu
yuan ben hai zai de
que you yi ge ge yao li wo er qu ...

Sam......
you shi hou
zhen de bu shi yun jie yao luan xiang
huo zhe wang xiang xie shen me
zhi shi ...
dang yi ge bu gu dan que ji mo de ren
shi yi jian hen tong ku hen tong ku de shi ...

wo zhen de mei ban fa yi ge ren cheng xia qu le ....
wo hen lei le ...
zhen de....

Angela & Elvira

wish you a prosperous CNY~~~

Happy MOOOOOOO~ Year ^^

愛情

無聊至極
在谷歌的搜尋引擎輸入“愛情”
想看看可以找到一些什麽東西

結果
讓我找到了維基百科的解釋

[[[ 愛情
[[[ 是一對男女基於一定的物質條件和共同的人生理想
[[[ 在各自内心形成的
[[[ 對對方的最真摯的仰慕
[[[ 並渴望對方成爲自己終生伴侶的
[[[ 最強烈最穩定最專一的感情

你找到什麽關鍵字嗎？
我找到的是：
-- 物質條件
-- 人生理想
-- 最真摯的
還有，
-- 最強烈最穩定最專一

（嗯，我很刻意的忽略掉
爲什麽只有男女，而沒有男男或女女）


我決定不再多想
留給你們，對就是你們不用再回頭看別人
自己去研究吧！

祝大家新年快樂
Happy牛Year~~ ^^

旅行的意義 (女兒，我喜歡上你們家綺貞的這首歌了。。)

你看過了許多美景　你看過了許多美女
你迷失在地圖上每一道短暫的光陰

你品嚐了夜的巴黎　你踏過下雪的北京
你熟記書本裡每一句你最愛的真理

卻說不出你愛我的原因　
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你動心　
說不出　離開的原因

你累計了許多飛行　你用心挑選紀念品
你蒐集了地圖上每一次的風和日麗

你擁抱熱情的島嶼　你埋葬記憶的土耳其
你流連電影裡美麗的不真實的場景

卻說不出你愛我的原因　
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心　
說不出　旅行的意義

你勉強說出你愛我的原因　
卻說不出你欣賞我哪一種表情
卻說不出在什麼場合我曾讓你分心　
說不出　離開的原因

勉強說出　你為我寄出的每一封信　
都是你　離開的原因
你離開我　就是旅行的意義

在醫院on-call的晚上。。。

很不想睡覺。。。雖然很累。。。
今晚是我第一次晚上on-call哦
感覺嘛。。。就是累，哈哈

其實我是該做一些什麽其它事的
工作的部分我算是做完了
只是一些之前拖欠下來的功課
但是我真的很累啊。。。

在msn上看到我的人
大概都有問我的nick到底是怎樣
我就說
就是字面上的意思啊
像庭妹妹說的
云姐恨嫁，哈哈

有時候
就只是覺得
i am on the edge of falling
總是覺得
可以支撐我的力量越來越小
所以就小小的幻想一下
如果真的就找個人嫁了
會不會就不那麽累
會不會就有被人support著的感覺

我知道
having a partner
不是只有這麽簡單而以
沒吃過豬肉也看過豬走路啦
身邊的朋友經歷過多少次傷心
我也不是不害怕的

小鑫也說
我不是像外表看起來那麽堅強的人
雖然我的身形會讓人難以想象
但是我是真的很希望
可以有人讓我沒有後顧之憂的倚靠著
不管發生什麽大小事
只要靠著他就好。。。

應該很難，對吧？

還是決定不要想太多
做工！！！！！！

Happy New Year 2009

距離我上一次寫部落格
原來已經快一個月了
所以我說
我真的很忙，哈

今晚
我是真的很想出去的
不管是跟理3 的你們
還是PRP們
我都很想
可是我的東西真的沒做完

我越來越懶惰了
東西越堆越多
可是就是沒有勁兒去做
巧鳳說
她已經差不多要到極限了
我又何嘗不是呢？
但願我們這兩個可憐的
像白老鼠一般的ward pharmacist
可以健健康康地
度過我們接下來在ward的日子
我們要加油哦！！！

大家新年快樂~
可以許願嗎？
我希望
在今年内找到一個可以照顧我的人
哈哈。。。
如果那個人不是個男人而是個女人
那我也認了~~^^
p/s: 我真的累得，需要找一個可以依靠的肩膀了。。。

男人

今天和uncle K聊天
一個把我當成自己女兒一樣看待的uncle
也就是38嵗男人的爸爸啦，哈哈

因爲就像是自己的爸爸
所以我理解愛之深責之切的道理

“現在有沒有男朋友？”
“沒有啊”
“現在不找會越來越難找了，你看像xx哥哥到現在。。。。。。（下刪250字）”
“我明白啊，可是。。。就是沒遇到啊。。”
“uncle跟你講一件事你不要生氣”
“不會啦。。。”
“你的脾氣要改”
“哦。”
“你知道自己脾氣很坏嗎？”
“。。我知道”
“你知道就好，我怕你自己不知道”
“。。嗯。”
“現在的男孩子。。以前到現在都一樣啦，喜歡溫柔的女孩子，做女孩子，性格不要太硬，姿態放低一點。。。（再下刪327字）”



我脾氣真的不好
我知道

妳的回話凌亂著 在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿 甜蜜散落了

情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌 假裝沒事了

時間過了 走了 愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這 真的痛了

怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著 妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得

妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著 要怎麼停呢

愛

很多時候
愛是要說出口的
不要認爲自己的愛深到可以讓被你愛的那個人
不需要言語就可以心神領會

物質上的給予也許真的很重要
是一種表現愛的方式
是一種希望你沒有任何後顧之憂的愛的方式
但是很多時候
就是因爲物質上的富足
才會更容易地感受到内心的空虛

言語上的責駡甚至是辱駡
也許已經習以爲常
但是再怎麽習慣被割傷
每一次被劃破手指的那一刻
終究還是會痛的啊
再怎麽麻痹都好
鮮血還是會不停的流

如果只是一些無聊的人做的一些無聊的事
我才不管你用多少的時間來討厭我
對我的生活一點影響都沒有
原因無他
就只因爲我不愛你

如果今天我很愛你
很愛很愛你
而你卻選擇了孤立我、冷落我
像是對待陌生人一般
客氣到近乎冷漠的態度對待我
我會痛
我真的會痛。。。

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獻給我除了父母以外最愛的那個人
到了今天我才發現
自己在這個獨一無二的角色裏
並沒有盡力做到最好
至少我並沒有發現
原來一直以來
你都那麽寂寞無助
我卻像其他人一樣
忽視了你一樣很脆弱的心靈

我不知道自己的存在
會讓你覺得自己那麽不堪
甚至懷疑自己在其他人心目中的地位
我真的不想的
因爲我真的真的很愛你

我不敢想象自己如果在你的立場上
我會怎麽想怎麽做
但是你卻很堅強的面對這一切
一個人面對這一切
讓我很心疼
真的，很心疼

我到底應該怎麽做？
才會讓你明白
我們大家都很愛你。。。

aiyo...

What a day....

竟然在這麽重要的日子裏哭了
爲什麽那個王八總是有讓我哭的能力？
還好你不是我男人，哈哈

不過真的
謝謝咯
很不一樣的
卻又很珍貴的生日禮物

love you

我不要

我不要
真的
什麽都不要
不需要

It has been ages since I last wrote my blog
Not to mention in English !!!

Well...
work is so far ok...
gradually got used to the style and the tempo..
*whispering*and the Boss...

You know what?
I just realised that I haven't liked a guy for so long
since (*&^$#%@$^&*() who knows when
and I actually.. you know.. I ...
*sigh*

一些小事

部落格門前積灰塵了
而且是damp damp的
打掃一下
*bling-bling*

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被訪問的病人一
makcik呼吸困難
進了醫院
問起這次進院是誰送進來的
makcik說
是嫁了人的女兒送她進來的
跟她一起住的兒子們
每天回家都是呆在房裏
完全不出房門
“Kalau saya mati dalam rumah
takda orang akan tahu juga...”
除了來回的揉揉makcik的手臂
我實在也不知道該說什麽

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那天我和二哥二嫂去吃飯
飲料送上來了
我和二嫂都沒辦法自己拉開易開罐
二哥什麽都沒說
先把我的罐裝水打開
倒進杯子裏
然後再幫二嫂
我那時候的第一個反應真的是
如果以後我和老公小姑去吃飯
老公先幫自己的妹妹打點好才來幫我
我該生氣呢？還是應該慶幸我老公是個戀家疼妹妹愛老婆的好男人？

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被訪問的病人二
“你好，我是這間醫院的藥劑師，我。。。”
“醫生說我有HIV。。。我是不是真的有愛滋病？”
“嗯。。其實有HIV不一定會發展成愛滋病，如果CD4可以一直維持在一定的水平，免疫系統就不會那麽快被破壞掉，有些病人有了HIV很多年也還沒有病發。。”
“昨天醫生跟我說的時候，她告訴我，要有心理準備。。”
“。。。。。。”
最後我默默地離開了病床旁
不僅是我沒辦法回應病人
也因爲病人落寞的望向窗外的背影
讓我實在不忍心
再説些沒什麽實質意義的鼓勵的話。。。

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小公主每天看到我的時候
都會笑嘻嘻的“跑”進我的房間
要我抱抱
抱抱的時候
總是會撒嬌的把頭往後仰
然後轉轉眼珠子
看著我呵呵的笑出聲
我啊
只要抱抱她
就什麽煩惱都沒有了

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我真的真的真的真的
很幸福。