Tuesday, 24 October 2006

It could mean a lot~

One day, when I was a freshman in high school,

I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.

His name was Kyle.

It looked like he was carrying all of his books.

I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon),

so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.

They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.

His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.

My heart went out to him.

So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.

As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives."

He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"

There was a big smile on his face.

It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.

As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.

He said he had gone to private school before now.

I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.

We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.

He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.

I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes.

We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.

I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!"

He just laughed ! and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.

When we were seniors, we began to think about college.

Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke.

I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.

He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd.

He had to prepare a speech for graduation.

I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak.

Graduation day, I saw Kyle.

He looked great.

He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.

He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.

He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.

Boy, sometimes I was jealous! Today was one of those days.

I could see that he was nervous about his speech.

So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"

He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. " Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began

"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.

Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...

I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.

He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.

He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.

"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.

I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.

Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions.

With one small gesture you can change a person's life.

For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.

Look for God in others.

Wednesday, 27 September 2006

For my Beloved Yong Hau

Dear Hau,

Wondered would you ever come and view my blog, but since I can't contact you in either way, here's the best place to give my wishes.

Happy 20th birthday~ hope everything in your life will go smoothly and may you find the person whom you can talk to freely, about all your feelings, your happiness, your sorrow, your anger, and all your fantasy ideas =)

lastly again, happy birthday my dear, and love you forever =)

Thursday, 14 September 2006

一封转发的信息

香煙愛上火柴就注定被傷害

不要輕易說愛
許下的承諾就是欠下的債

老鼠對貓說我愛你
貓說你走開
老鼠流淚離開
誰也沒看見
老鼠走后貓也留了一滴淚

其實有一種愛情
叫作放棄

風箏一輩子
只會為一根綫冒險

女人善變的是臉
男人善變的是心

在愛情的世界裏
沒有誰對不起誰
只有誰不懂得珍惜誰

遇到了真愛
就不要輕易說離開

要記得抓緊愛情
而不是
抓傷彼此的感情

不要忘了真愛難尋

Wednesday, 13 September 2006

千里之外

千里之外
費玉清, 周杰倫
 
屋簷如懸崖 風鈴如滄海 我等燕歸來
時間被安排 演一場意外 妳悄然走開

故事在城外 濃霧散不開 看不清對白
妳聽不出來 風聲不存在 是我在感慨

夢醒來 是誰在窗台 把結局打開
那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆

我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白
沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在
琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待

聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我兩鬢斑白

聞淚聲入林 尋梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我等妳來

一身琉璃白 透明著塵埃 妳無瑕的愛
妳從雨中來 詩化了悲哀 我淋濕現在

芙蓉水面採 船行影猶在 妳卻不回來
被歲月覆蓋 妳說的花開 過去成空白

夢醒來 是誰在窗台 把結局打開
那薄如蟬翼的未來 經不起誰來拆

我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白
沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在
琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生

我送妳離開 千里之外 妳無聲黑白
沉默年代 或許不該 太遙遠的相愛
我送妳離開 天涯之外 妳是否還在
琴聲何來 生死難猜 用一生 去等待

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真的很喜歡這首歌哦
尤其在看了它的歌詞和mtv之後
很有詩意
我想
我真的很喜歡……
方文山吧
哈哈

之前聼很多人說
費玉清唱得比周傑倫好
心想
一定是那些不喜歡周傑倫的人
故意這樣說的
結果很認真地聼了這首歌
發現……
原來大家說的
其實還蠻中肯的啦
沒有要損周傑倫的意思
費玉清嘛
雖然他真的不是我們7年級生的那杯茶
不過能唱那麽多年
再次出擊還能和那些年輕小伙子爭最佳男演唱人
實力不容小覷哦
在這首歌裏
他還真的
唱得比周傑倫
好很多。

平安

突然發現
自己很喜歡別人說“希望你平安哦”~
總覺得
比起別人希望我“永遠美麗”“天天開心”
希望我平安讓我覺得更感動

美麗是短暫的
(雖然我連短暫的時光都不曾擁有,哈哈)
開心也是起伏不定的
(我覺得啦)
平安似乎是一種
很平凡卻又很幸福的感覺
不是很平淡無奇的
卻又不是特別轟轟烈烈的
可是
就是很知足的
一種狀態…吧!
希望一切都好好的
但是也不奢望會能夠太美好的感覺
只要剛剛好
就夠了

可能因爲自己很喜歡
所以我也喜歡在信末
或者在信息的最後
加上一句
“希望你幸福平安哦”
期盼別人也覺得很……
可能不至於像我一樣感動吧
至少覺得……貼心?
嗯就是貼心

哎喲
我發現我還真的有點不太懂得表達自己
可是在看著的你們
懂我的意思吧?

希望在看著這篇帖子的你們
也會平安哦^^

Friday, 25 August 2006

帥得讓我目不轉睛的男人~

(圖註:看帥哥咬手指我會臉紅+心跳加速啦…)

最近跟佳雯借了一套好像是2003年的日劇吧
《愛情革命LoveRevolution》
男主角藤木直人
還真的是帥到不行啊
劇中有很多很浪漫的吻戯
(這當然是最吸引我的最大原因咯,呵~)
讓人看了都覺得好幸福啊
不過去找了找他的資料
發現……
1972
他34了啊
爲什麽我總是逃不開喜歡熟男的宿命啊
可惡的是
我竟然還是很樂意的沉淪在這種宿命裏
哇哈哈

有一點要說的是
在很多直人哥哥帥死人不償命的大特寫鏡頭中
我發現從蠻多角度看來
直人哥哥和賀小美有很多相似的地方耶
深情注視著女主角的樣子
笑開了懷的樣子
吃醋卻又極力掩飾的樣子
親吻女主角時露出性感眼神的樣子
都好像哦
原來帥哥這囘事
還真的有個標準模式可循的呢

所以那個……
結論就是……
我最近至少兩個星期的花痴對象
就是藤木直人Naohito-sang了^^

Sunday, 20 August 2006

Am I beautiful ??

This is the gown I am going to wear for my brother's wedding... erm scarf will be provided, and probably will put some make up and at least do something to my hair... hehe, anyone has any comment just tell me lah, thanks so much~~

Saturday, 19 August 2006

May Aibee's dad rest in peace...

Just now 12am, I received Aibee's sms...

Her dad has passed away at 6++pm...

This afternoon Aibee SMSed me that, the doctor said her dad might not be able to survive through tonight, I felt shocked but still, I do hope that miracle could happen, but in the end...

Mehng told me, Christians believe that if the patient's death can actually release him from pain and sorrow, and back to God's side, it might be a good thing to happen...

The suffering of a 4th stage cancer patient is impossible for a normal healthy person to imagine... perhaps, this is really the best thing for her dad, no more pain and no more morphine and no more machines connected...

Aibee, be strong and be brave, we'll always be here for you, gambateh~~

Monday, 7 August 2006

玫瑰花瓣的信箋

在一個清晨醒來的孤枕邊 我發現你離去的留言
那是一封裝滿玫瑰花瓣的信箋 裡面有你撕碎的誓言

我想你一定哭泣了一整夜 終於你還是選擇他溫暖的肩
看著那封裝滿玫瑰花瓣的信箋 直到淚水模糊了我的視線

你說親愛的不要為我悲傷 不要為我流淚
請你原諒我這次掙扎許久的告別
一瓣玫瑰代表一份不捨的依戀 紀念我們曾經那麼美的昨天

在一次多年以後重逢的街 你淡淡的說他已經走遠
留下一封裝滿玫瑰花瓣的信箋 裡面是他撕碎的誓言

他說親愛的不要為我悲傷 不要為我流淚
請你原諒我這次掙扎許久的告別
一瓣玫瑰代表一份不捨的依戀 紀念我們曾經那麼美的昨天

可是在我的身邊已經有了另一個依偎
雖然你說愛我的心其實從來沒有一點改變
於是在你我轉身以前 我只能無奈的還給你
那封我收藏了好久裝滿玫瑰花瓣的信箋

我說親愛的不要為我悲傷 不要為我流淚
請你相信我這次掙扎許久的告別
一瓣玫瑰代表一份枯萎的依戀 別再想起曾經那麼美的昨天

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聼過這首歌
是林志炫的版本
第一次聼的時候
記得好像有掉淚
哈哈
很正常啦
因爲很感動

隔了。。。3,4年吧
最近又在聼這首歌
原本以爲
心情應該會平復一些
結果。。。
沒想到情緒更激動
$%^&*(%$%^&*

怎麽說呢?
如果我是故事裏的那個“另一個依偎”
我應該會很感動
因爲擁有一個認定我
而且不再緬懷過去的男人
雖然可能沒辦法得到他曾經付出的最深刻的愛
但是相對于轟轟烈烈的愛情
我更希望
找到一個平平淡淡
跟我過一輩子的人。。。

Sunday, 6 August 2006

我終于又上來放帖子了。。。

話説
8月5號的這天
高三理3和初三5的朋友都有聚會
我發誓
要選擇去哪一邊
都讓我很頭痛
可是
既然影勇在庭妹和楚楚之前約了我
所以我決定
舍理3而選初三5了
云妹妹啊
云姐姐對不起你呢~

到達Mid Valley的時候
影勇說還在Serdang那站等子威格格他們
所以只好自己先逛逛囖
除了在幫Pavi找外套之外
心裏還是盤旋著滿滿的不安
大家。。。
從初三之後好像都沒有聚在一起了
哦不對
是初三之後
我就沒有和他們一起聚過了
會不會有隔閡呢?
不會。。。太尷尬吧?
有沒有話題聊呢?
就這樣
在他們到之前
一直在想著

逛了大概半小時吧
在我餓到要瘋掉的時候
他們終于到了
哇好多人哦
影勇、子威、寳榮、海乾、康榮、
勁凱、華強、進偉、詩媛、芊仁
好好呢
大家都從新山趕來了
就爲了今天的可能初三5最後一場的足球賽
可能有點感動吧
眼角和心裏都覺得暖暖的

折騰了很久
一群人在放棄了很多人滿到爆的餐館之後
終于決定到詩媛實習的那間餐館Chili’s吃
嗯
食物真的不是普通的貴
寳榮替大家結了RM350++的賬
他是真的請客哦
哦當然
食物的分量也不是普通的大
男生們對著据他們說
跟3個big mac一樣大
而且内餡兒厚實得像牛排一樣的漢堡
也是沒轍
吃得完的也只是硬塞
(P/s: 華強竟然還吃了兩份,暈倒~)
午餐的節目之一
當然也少不了八卦囉
嘿嘿
不過這些八卦當中
有些有點限制級
所以還是自己keep著就好了
哈哈
不過重點是
聊天的當兒
我仿佛又回到了樂群樓樓下
右邊算起第2間的教室
一切都好自然
好像大家還是在一起一樣
之前盤旋在我腦海中的不安
也隨著大家一陣又一陣的笑聲
消失不見。。。

吃飽逛了一陣之後
大家就往新紀元出發了
可惜丫
詩媛要做工
芊仁又不能太晚回家
所以
我就成了唯一一個到場支持的女生了
後來俊偉和可毅也從時代廣場那裏趕來了
球賽開始囉~~
。。。
。。。
。。。
球賽結果。。。
我們輸了
6比2
有點慘
儘管勁凱一直說今天是“聚會第一”
寳榮還是偷偷跑到角落哭(??)
(我也不懂啦,海乾說他是在哭,哈哈)
不過沒關係啊
初三5男生的足球
一直是我引以爲傲的啊
只要他們了解
他們在我心中都是英雄就好啦~

拍完很多照+他們沖好涼之後
我們11個人又浩浩蕩蕩地往附近的pizza hut出發
經過chili’s、KTM之後
我漸漸發現
我們所到之處
其他人都顯得特別安靜
原因無他
就是因爲我們太~~~吵了
你能夠想象10個大男生
用完全沒有壓低的聲量
在pizza hut樓上講黃色笑話嗎?
最可怕的是
我是唯一一個女的
真不知道附近的爸爸媽媽會不會對身邊的女兒說
“女兒啊,以後不可以像這個姐姐醬
交這樣的男生朋友啊~”
雖然真的很尷尬
可是不被當成女生、
不讓男生憋著不開黃腔的被信任的感覺
真的很好
就讓那些旁人側目吧
可不能讓世俗眼光削弱我和大家一起聼黃色笑話的決心哦
哈哈哈哈哈

折騰了好久好久
終于他們要送我回家了
在這種關鍵時刻被當成女生
被送回家的感覺真是太棒了
雖然他們一直說
送我回家是爲了維持治安
不讓我出去害人
$%^&*((*&^%$#$%^&
不過10個男人耶
一路送到樓上我家門口
連我的housemates都被嚇到
難怪寳榮會說
你們公寓的guard以後一定不敢對你怎麽樣
哇哈哈
臨他們走之前
在我家門口的那個緊急出口
對,就是那個上面寫著KELUAR的那個
我們又拍了幾張大合照
聚會就算是圓滿結束了

直到現在
打了這麽長的一封帖子
心裏還是覺得很充實
也許如果今天我去理3那裏
我也會玩得很開心
不過總歸一句
今天這趟初三5的聚會
也總算是沒有白來啦
初三5的同學
慧云真的愛你們哦~~

Saturday, 29 July 2006

話説

之前看到報章上的娛樂新聞
郭品超到日本宣傳新戯(吧?)
據説日本的記者們
個個見到品超都驚為天人
因爲他們都說
怎麽那個郭品超
長得那麽像我們家的
速水茂虎道

乍聼之下
有點小小不服氣
也有點小小不相信
不服氣是因爲:
也應該説是速水家的帥哥像我們家品超
不相信是因爲:
怎麽可能那麽帥的臉
會讓兩個人都同時擁有呢?

結果。。。
昨天翻到娛樂雜誌
看到速水先生
哇靠
還真的有夠像。。。

嗯,
找不到跟雜誌上一樣像的照片
有機會的話
可以去看看竹野内豐和崔智友演的《輪舞曲》
他有演哦

嗯
結論是:
不管你覺不覺得他們長得像
一個不變的事實是:
速水先生真的,
有帥。

Thursday, 27 July 2006

在學校elab。。。

上完課了
想在圖書館讀書
可是剛吃飽
不夠血液流到腦子去
副交感神經啓動
沒法讀書
所以。。。
就來這裡泡啦~
(哈哈,我的掰功一流吧^^)

哎~
其實也沒有想到要寫些什麽
只是想說能夠讓大家知道我還安然無恙
這幾天心情變好好多了
可能。。。
是因爲美好的事一直在發生吧
哈哈

對了
我這個禮拜
也許可能説不定
我有回新山哦
原本是不打算的
書都讀不完了
可是室友好像又打算通通跑回家
沒辦法
我是個沒辦法一個人住在vista的不獨立女孩
所以囉。。。

哎喲真的沒法掰了
要去讀書了
拜拜囉

Friday, 21 July 2006

有幾件事想說吧。

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室友的爸爸生病了。去年年底動了手術切除癌細胞,因爲年紀大了所以醫生不建議作化療。大概幾個星期前,室友接到媽媽帶著哽咽聲音的電話,說爸爸動手術前的徵兆都回來了:嘔吐不止,吃不下東西。輾轉在太平的公立醫院奔波,檢查結果發現,上次沒有做化療的結果是,爸爸的癌細胞擴散了,而且已經到了第四期,接到檢查結果的那個下午,我們其他三個唯一能做的,就是抱著哭得不能自己的室友,拍著她的肩讓她平復心情,因爲實在沒有什麽可以安慰的話可以說。。。現在她的爸爸被轉到馬大醫院,醫生正在想盡辦法替他做些什麽。看到這篇帖子的朋友,不管你是佛教道教基督教天主教,請你也盡一點小小的心力,用你所相信的禱告方式,替我室友爸爸祈禱吧。

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前天上課的時候,因爲前一天睡不好,只睡了不到5個小時,精神超不好。上的課又是那個很“優秀”的講師教的,整整1個小時的課根本聼不懂。心情真的很沮喪,沮喪到根本不想找人説話,結果跟室友耗了一個晚上,才把心裏那種整個學期開始以來的沮喪和恐懼全盤托出,把自己掏空的結果,就是眼淚也跟著飆出來。我想室友嚇壞了吧,一直想盡辦法安慰我。原本以爲自己的問題解決了,結果後遺症是,我的室友也被我搞到很緊張,比以前更拼命地讀書。原來自己真的會給別人帶來那麽大的壓力,我想以後如果心情再不好,我也不會跟任何人說了吧,窩在房間哭就好了,至於會不會壓抑出病來,到時候再説吧,哈哈,哈,哈,哈。。。

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昨天晚上因爲被房裏一只很大只的蟑螂嚇到,晚上做夢的時候竟然夢見想mimic裏的那種變種大蟑螂,然後被嚇醒,接著一直哭一直哭。哭著哭著,突然想起自己是在吉隆坡,還以爲會像在家裏一樣,如果被嚇醒哭了的話,爸爸和媽媽都會心疼地從隔壁房跑過來,拍著我的背安撫我說“只是做夢而已,睡啦睡啦。。。”昨晚哭完之後,突然好想家,好想念兩個像是欠了我一輩子那麽久而願意無條件一輩子疼惜我的爸爸媽媽,突然我真的明白,什麽才叫作“無私”的愛。。。帶著滿臉干掉的眼淚,我又睡了回去,少了厚實的手掌拍拍我的背,我想我也必須學會如何獨自睡去了。。。

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如果你是真的很關心我的人,看了這片帖子后其實不用很擔心我,至少我還有這個管道抒發情緒,過幾天,那個活潑樂觀的慧云一定會再回來的。慧云加油。

=祝小婉生日快樂^^=

Saturday, 8 July 2006

Copied from weiteng's bulletin board...

31 ways To Make A Girl Smile

1. Tell her she is beautiful

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
like the feeling of right hand being held, like someone to stand on my right hand side and grab my hand naturally, I feel being needed very much^^

3. Hug her from behind

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.

5. Wrestle with her :)

6. don't go hang out with you ex when shes not with you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.

7. If you re talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her....let her know she's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"

9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up (she loves it)

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it

13. Make her laugh
must be someone humorous I guess... Lame jokes also no problem, as long as I can laugh by just looking at him when he's telling the jokes...

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
although his arm will feel REALLY numb, its kinda sweet isn't it? especially when I am experiencing my period pain...

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then TELL HER

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep),jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts(she'll most likely wear it to bed) or sweat shirts sprayed with his cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
am immunocompromised to guys with cute smile, tend to be attracted by cute smiling guys rather than extremely good looking guys... smile makes everyone look like ANGEL~~

20. Hang out with her on weekends

21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)

22.Kiss her just for the heck of it

23. If you r listening to music, let her listen too.

24. Remember her birthday and get her something,even if its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.
wondering which girl would not mind bf forgetting her birthday... Just have to show that you remember and you care, present is afterall not so important, frankly speaking.

25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don't care so call even if you can only talk for a minute.Girls don't necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

27.Give her wat she wants

28.Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

29.dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

30.hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girl friend all the time

31.If u care about her...SHOW her!
action is really much important than simply give meaningless promises, don't you agree?

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If really I can get a guy like this, I must be really blessed lah, haha, hui4 zhe2 shou4 de...

but for me, I think only the bold ones are more practical... Don't expect too much, though its quite demanding too :p