一個沒有目的的下午。。。
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昨天剛剛把foundation pharmacy的presentation解決掉，回來之後就把房間的桌子書櫥統統擦得乾乾淨淨，然後也把房間地板抹得光滑溜溜的，洗了一個很舒服的澡，然後把禮拜五要帶囘新山的行李準備好，整理到淩晨兩點吧，無所謂地翻著吳若權的《你知不知道我好愛你》慢慢地進入夢鄉。。。
起床的時候應該已經10點半了吧，足足睡飽8個小時，起床的那一刻突然有種想法，如果我一直就這樣癱著不要起來，在乎我的人會不會也因此沉淪在看不見陽光的世界裏？地球不停地轉，與此同時又有多少人會爲了我而停下腳步？是個笨問題吧，笨得沒有人有辦法給我一個答案。
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果然是無聊得可以，竟然又把《魔女之條件》給它看完了，師生戀多麽地勇敢啊，真是讓人感動，不過如果發生在現實社會裏，肯定找不到像松島菜菜子和瀧澤秀明這樣的配搭，看起來一定是噁心多過感動。。。原來，我也像戯裏的甲乙丙丁戊一樣，是那麽地不齒這種行徑，不過只是一部純屬虛構的戯，我又何必太認真呢？
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神州六號回來囖！記得上次神州五號回來的時候，看到楊利偉也不至於那麽興奮，可是這次看到電視直播費俊龍和聶海勝從太空艙裏爬出來，然後對著鏡頭說感謝祖國和人民的愛戴，眼淚竟然莫名其妙地流了出來，想要繼續哭飽一頓又好像有點過頭了，所以只好把電視關了，再回到自己的房間感動。
可是幾乎是同一時間，就看道報導說巴金老人撒手歸西了，雖然對文學並沒有特別熱衷，一代文壇巨匠的逝世還是讓人感到既痛心卻又安慰。不是說之前他一直要求要安樂死嗎？現在的他應該是很安詳地去到天國了吧!
當那麽令人激動和令人惋惜的事同時發生時，那個現在在日本沒有任何人可以挑戰其地位的小泉純一郎，竟然選在同一天去參拜靖囯神社，不過是穿著西裝，只用了5分鐘的時間就閃人了。中國官方指責為甚麼選在中國舉國歡騰的時候，又要讓一眾炎黃子孫大動肝火，那個可愛到不行的日本官方發言人竟然說“爲什麽神六選在同一天回返地球？！”嗯。。。這樣的話我懂了，改次神州七號回返地球之前，應該打聽清楚小泉先生什麽時候把三跪九叩都做完了，再回來也不遲，是這樣嗎？呵，可笑~~~
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最近情緒又有點不穩定了，有跡可尋地、我發現我在重復著高二那年做過的傻事：在心裏慢慢醖釀，從一開始一直地不確定，到後來義無反顧地相信，雖然在這當兒，在這個必須存在兩個人的故事裏，我依然唱著獨角戲。。。高二的那一齣，我唱了兩年才甘心一個人謝幕，現在我真的不想再一個人站在臺上一個人演完了，真的會累的咧！怎麽辦才好呢？必須等到泥足深陷才發現必須忍痛抽身嗎？還是要不顧一切飛蛾撲火呢？。。。呵呵，其實我現在還是處於不確定的狀態，只要堅持不相信，就不會那麽痛了不是嗎？頂多，只是感覺胃酸通通湧到心臟裏攪了幾下而已吧！
– 這一段，寫給好像真的看不懂華文，卻又懂得發中文版有色笑話訊息給我的– 你，一個讓人那麽進退兩難的你，一個讓人捉摸不定的你，一個我也不知道身邊有沒有另外一個人的你。。。 呵呵，寫完這段的同時，我好像，已經相信了—可以，相信嗎？
Thursday, 20 October 2005
Friday, 30 September 2005
2005/9/29 11:09pm
Ok supposingly I shouldn’t have time to update my blog, but still I have to record down what had happened tonight.
Tonight was our basketball match, final for both guys and girls. For girls is our batch against sem5, and versus sem1 for guys. We lost the girl match, but actually I didn’t feel that surprised (don’t beat me up!!), maybe it’s because prior to the match, SOMEONE told me that sem5 is really good in girls basketball. Ok then forget it. Just stay cool and watch the guys match.
The whole match was very exciting, our pharmacists were leading at the first place, 10++ points, but soon they caught up and after that our marks were very very close. And in the end ………. We lost!!! 74:70, OMG only 4 marks you know? But without doubt, our pharmacists performed very well and I can say that tonight is the best job they have ever done, but unluckily, we met sem1 and they are really good in playing also. Sigh looking at my semi-juniors, guys from B105 and also YongTa, I can tell the disappointment on their face, and someone cried also (?!?!!?) but what I can tell them is: YOU GUYS DID A VERY GOOD JOB, THANKS FOR ALL THE PROUD GAINED FOR PHARMACY~~~~
Wondering any seniors took the pictures or videos… maybe can get them and post on my blog… anyway getting damn tired now, gotta sleep. Good night everyone~
LOVE YOU * thanks for all the sweet things you have done *
Tonight was our basketball match, final for both guys and girls. For girls is our batch against sem5, and versus sem1 for guys. We lost the girl match, but actually I didn’t feel that surprised (don’t beat me up!!), maybe it’s because prior to the match, SOMEONE told me that sem5 is really good in girls basketball. Ok then forget it. Just stay cool and watch the guys match.
The whole match was very exciting, our pharmacists were leading at the first place, 10++ points, but soon they caught up and after that our marks were very very close. And in the end ………. We lost!!! 74:70, OMG only 4 marks you know? But without doubt, our pharmacists performed very well and I can say that tonight is the best job they have ever done, but unluckily, we met sem1 and they are really good in playing also. Sigh looking at my semi-juniors, guys from B105 and also YongTa, I can tell the disappointment on their face, and someone cried also (?!?!!?) but what I can tell them is: YOU GUYS DID A VERY GOOD JOB, THANKS FOR ALL THE PROUD GAINED FOR PHARMACY~~~~
Wondering any seniors took the pictures or videos… maybe can get them and post on my blog… anyway getting damn tired now, gotta sleep. Good night everyone~
LOVE YOU * thanks for all the sweet things you have done *
Sunday, 25 September 2005
2005/9/24 11:23am
Yesterday I promised teng meimei that I will update my blog, but one day late …. She won’t mind, will she? ^^
Just finished my statistic exam on Friday. I was so helpless when I was preparing it, never have this subject at Foon Yew before, only except the probability. Anyway, still I finished it. It was not as difficult as I thought, i.e. it is simpler than what I expected, hopefully I can get good result, come on, it’s still considered mathematic if I am not wrong, how could it be that bad? ^^
This evening, went to support YongTa* again. Today was the basketball match of pharmacy vs sem4**. It was a tough match, the last 3 seconds, we thought we won, but somehow the referee said FAULT!! Anyway after arguing for so long, our pharmacists decided not to argue anymore and let sem4 have the penalty. But the thing is, Shirlyn***’s boyfriend is damn good in shooting the ball, especially the “3-point ball” (so sorry that I don’t know the specific name of it, you guys know what I mean right? ^^) so after the penalty, our result was 57-56, erm yeah you are right, we got 56!! And then, we got 2 seconds left, which means that if we never got the ball in within this time, we would lose the match and the qualification to the final as well. Everyone couldn’t do anything but praying, but really, in a very pessimistic way. YongTa threw out the ball from the outside of the court, and Samuel**** got the ball, “don’t pass the ball already, just shoot!” someone shouted. Without thinking much, even though stood beyond the “3-point line”, Samuel shot the ball, and… without touching the edge of the basket, the ball got in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At the same moment, I could feel that all the pharmacy supporters (including me of course^^) jumped up and screamed and clapped. OH MY GOD we did it!!!! I think my tears came out at the same time, it’s really touching man~ We really won!! All the pharmacists went crazy over that, the players were hugging with each other, and… and… oh my god, I am really SPEECHLESS already!! Anyway, since we got into the final, that means we’ll be facing either sem1 or sem5, gambateh neh pharmacy ~~
Tonight also, the result of the Malaysian idol. Just for your info if you didn’t watch, just like what I did in JB last year, the finalists were Daniel and Nita. I voted for Nita, because I think she is really a better singer than Daniel, no matter is her vocal or her performance, although I like Daniel A LOT~ (first, he is a Chinese contestant, second, I think he looks abit like Jeff Chang ^^) In the end, the result came out, DANIEL IS THE 2ND MALAYSIAN IDOL ~~ #%^&*()(*&^%$#@!#$%^& how could it happen? I voted for Nita~~ how could she lost? I nearly suffocated, because the mood 2 hours before (the match) and now were totally different!! Anyway, what can I do? Just like the MC Jien said, “Malaysians this is who you voted!” Hopefully Daniel would be discovered by those Chinese record companies and send him over Taiwan, because I think he could perform much much much much better in chinese songs, and some more he can compose songs~ and Nita, buck up also, surely will have a lot of record companies wanna get her in. So conclusion, all the best to them ^^
Erm what to write now? Should I stop here? Hehe I know you guys don’t hope so right? ^^
Erm I am fine in KL (n times I have been repeating this), but currently “secretly” in love with few guys, haha. I felt so nice now because I think I have already erased that person in my heart totally, oh I should say I have successfully shifted him from “crush” position back to the “buddy” position. The time passed and the distance between us, really parted us, in my heart. The “crushES” I am having now are quite nice also lah, but hopefully there will be one of them shift his place from “crush” to “bf”, haha~
Next week, tuesday, will be going to RedBox with teng, peggy and chuchu. Excited over that, but before that, must make sure I can finish my stuffs, the bioscience test safely… Oooi~ touch wood touch wood, definitely I can score very good result, bless me ok?
Really gotta stop here, though you guys don’t want me to :p Nitez everyone ^^
Notes
* = YongTa, FoonYew senior, 98xxx, but IMU junior, B0502xxx, a super dupa nice guy, can sing damn nice, FY choir member woh~~
** = This month IMU is having IMU cup, we all are divided by our batches, pharmacy is considered one team, and the medics are further divided into sem1, sem2 and so on, so normally we will straight away say “sem3”, “sem4”, or “pharmacy”.
*** = Shirlyn, my batchmate, a very beautiful and sweet girl, and her boyfriend is the basketball player for sem4.
**** = Samuel, my senior, was my orientation officer, a very sweet guy as well ^^
Just finished my statistic exam on Friday. I was so helpless when I was preparing it, never have this subject at Foon Yew before, only except the probability. Anyway, still I finished it. It was not as difficult as I thought, i.e. it is simpler than what I expected, hopefully I can get good result, come on, it’s still considered mathematic if I am not wrong, how could it be that bad? ^^
This evening, went to support YongTa* again. Today was the basketball match of pharmacy vs sem4**. It was a tough match, the last 3 seconds, we thought we won, but somehow the referee said FAULT!! Anyway after arguing for so long, our pharmacists decided not to argue anymore and let sem4 have the penalty. But the thing is, Shirlyn***’s boyfriend is damn good in shooting the ball, especially the “3-point ball” (so sorry that I don’t know the specific name of it, you guys know what I mean right? ^^) so after the penalty, our result was 57-56, erm yeah you are right, we got 56!! And then, we got 2 seconds left, which means that if we never got the ball in within this time, we would lose the match and the qualification to the final as well. Everyone couldn’t do anything but praying, but really, in a very pessimistic way. YongTa threw out the ball from the outside of the court, and Samuel**** got the ball, “don’t pass the ball already, just shoot!” someone shouted. Without thinking much, even though stood beyond the “3-point line”, Samuel shot the ball, and… without touching the edge of the basket, the ball got in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At the same moment, I could feel that all the pharmacy supporters (including me of course^^) jumped up and screamed and clapped. OH MY GOD we did it!!!! I think my tears came out at the same time, it’s really touching man~ We really won!! All the pharmacists went crazy over that, the players were hugging with each other, and… and… oh my god, I am really SPEECHLESS already!! Anyway, since we got into the final, that means we’ll be facing either sem1 or sem5, gambateh neh pharmacy ~~
Tonight also, the result of the Malaysian idol. Just for your info if you didn’t watch, just like what I did in JB last year, the finalists were Daniel and Nita. I voted for Nita, because I think she is really a better singer than Daniel, no matter is her vocal or her performance, although I like Daniel A LOT~ (first, he is a Chinese contestant, second, I think he looks abit like Jeff Chang ^^) In the end, the result came out, DANIEL IS THE 2ND MALAYSIAN IDOL ~~ #%^&*()(*&^%$#@!#$%^& how could it happen? I voted for Nita~~ how could she lost? I nearly suffocated, because the mood 2 hours before (the match) and now were totally different!! Anyway, what can I do? Just like the MC Jien said, “Malaysians this is who you voted!” Hopefully Daniel would be discovered by those Chinese record companies and send him over Taiwan, because I think he could perform much much much much better in chinese songs, and some more he can compose songs~ and Nita, buck up also, surely will have a lot of record companies wanna get her in. So conclusion, all the best to them ^^
Erm what to write now? Should I stop here? Hehe I know you guys don’t hope so right? ^^
Erm I am fine in KL (n times I have been repeating this), but currently “secretly” in love with few guys, haha. I felt so nice now because I think I have already erased that person in my heart totally, oh I should say I have successfully shifted him from “crush” position back to the “buddy” position. The time passed and the distance between us, really parted us, in my heart. The “crushES” I am having now are quite nice also lah, but hopefully there will be one of them shift his place from “crush” to “bf”, haha~
Next week, tuesday, will be going to RedBox with teng, peggy and chuchu. Excited over that, but before that, must make sure I can finish my stuffs, the bioscience test safely… Oooi~ touch wood touch wood, definitely I can score very good result, bless me ok?
Really gotta stop here, though you guys don’t want me to :p Nitez everyone ^^
Notes
* = YongTa, FoonYew senior, 98xxx, but IMU junior, B0502xxx, a super dupa nice guy, can sing damn nice, FY choir member woh~~
** = This month IMU is having IMU cup, we all are divided by our batches, pharmacy is considered one team, and the medics are further divided into sem1, sem2 and so on, so normally we will straight away say “sem3”, “sem4”, or “pharmacy”.
*** = Shirlyn, my batchmate, a very beautiful and sweet girl, and her boyfriend is the basketball player for sem4.
**** = Samuel, my senior, was my orientation officer, a very sweet guy as well ^^
Tuesday, 30 August 2005
happened to drop by the elab...
well, just came to the elab 20minutes before my lectures … erm seeing no one posting comment on my blog, what is the feeling ?? … hard to describe still …
Tuesday, 23 August 2005
23 Aug 2005 00:38am
剛剛做完我的英文leaflet， 室友已經跑去睡覺了，而我呢，其實也已經很累的了，可是，心想好像好久都沒有打我的部落格（blog）了，有點虧對自己的感覺，所以只好犧牲一些睡眠時間囖。。。
最近發生了些什麽事嗎？其實我已經忘記了，可能最近的生活真的比較忙吧，English, BM, Foundation Pharmacy, Physiology，通通都要找資料、做報告，弄得我有點頭昏腦漲的，而且最近好像真的會很容易忘記三分鐘前想好要做的事情，天啊，我覺得自己可能已經得了《腦海裏的橡皮擦》女主角的病，Alzheimer’s disease，不過還好，目前爲止我還是能夠清晰地勾勒出爸爸媽媽哥哥的樣子，不像女主角那麽可憐，連站在面前的老公都忘了是誰。。。
説到《腦海裏的橡皮擦》，由於佳雯也到IMU來念書，再加上她把愛看的電影DVD都帶上來的緣故，在那些報告還沒有壓得我穿不過氣來的時候，我跟他借了幾部戯，包括《橡》和《在世界的中心呼喊愛》。《在世界的中心呼喊愛》真的是一部很好看的電影，雖然題材不外是愛情故事，可是演員們細膩的演出，令人動容的眼神，著實讓我感動了好久，雖然沒有在電腦面前掉淚，可是我知道我的心裏的確哭過了一遍。。。
其實在吉隆坡待了那麽久，對很多人都已經釋懷了，雖然很開心地跟兒子說要為他找個爸爸，也跟其他人很三八地說過哪個學長很帥、哪個學長很體貼，可是啊跟我熟的人一定知道，我是個不折不扣的孬種，自己清楚自己長得一副什麽樣子，在家發發花痴也總好過跑去嚇學長，接著淪落到男人看到我就避而遠之，什麽學長、朋友通通免談，靠！我仍然擁有著我捍衛已久的尊嚴，不需要活得那麽低聲下氣。。。話雖如此，我卻依然寂寞。。。
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最近吳若權出了一本10万字的長篇小説，名為《你知不知道我好愛你》，星洲日報現在正在連載，看過它的故事大綱，大概是一個17嵗的少女和一個成功商人之間的故事，雖然聼起來有點怪怪的，可是正是這樣的情節讓我這個曾經有戀父情結的人感到很有興趣，也許這個星期有空的話可以去書局看看吧，把它抱回家細細品味畢竟沒有每天追連載那種騷不到骨子裏的篇幅那麽令人憂鬱，每天都經歷一次期待與失落，再這樣下去的人生不是辦法。。。
星期一那天，是凱旋的生日，前一天晚上眼睛都快眯上了，可是還是很雀躍地等待12點正的來臨，可以給這個好朋友送上最準時的祝福，誰知打去了幾次，不是叫我等10分鐘，就是叫我等5分鐘。說實在，有點生氣了，爲什麽我必須是等待的那個，而不是後來插隊的那些？？可是用另一個比較阿Q的角度想：因爲我們是好朋友啊，如果聊起來的話那可是會天南地北的咧，別人打不進來會怎麽想？他們“應該”沒有我和凱旋這樣的感情，或許他們真的會覺得打不進來很煩，接著就不打來了，那這種罪名我得擔當嗎？不，不可以，所以我必須大方，大方得我直接給凱旋一個訊息，說我累了先睡了，結果過沒多久凱旋好像有miss call我，可是我看到的時候已經是隔天的事了，算是一次無心的錯過吧？
同一天，神廟那裏普度慶中原，人在吉隆坡的我不能回去，只能通過和媽媽的電話知道那裏熱鬧的情況。從小到大，神廟的每年兩次的宴會我都不曾缺席，總覺得我本來就應該在那兒的，可是這次，是我第一次沒有到那裏去，心裏真的好失落，總認爲我失去了一些什麽。。。
星期二一大早睡醒的時候，知道自己躺在那張熟悉卻又有幾分陌生的床鋪上，突然有種很豁然開朗的感覺，其實不管是凱旋的生日還是神廟的普度日，雖然我失去了，可是一切都已經過去了，我必須揪著這些改變不了的事情讓自己煩躁個幾天嗎？不可以啊，帶著遺憾的心情跟著地球自轉幾圈，那豈不是辜負了那個辛苦背負著我的地球嗎？這樣對它太不公平了吧。。。
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突然有種想投稿的雅興，想自己有時也寫寫文章，讓自己多點書卷兒味，可是總覺得自己的華文水平已經不復當年，搞不好寫出來的東西經過鳳玉老師一批，大概又是七八十個字被狠狠地、不留情面地刪去。。。不過想想，如果只是在自己的部落格發發牢騷，其實也應該可以磨出一點屬於自己的所謂風格吧，不需要別人的批判，只要自己開心，管他文法標點符號，只要你能明白我在說什麽，其他的也通通只是小菜一碟，人生嘛，就是要讓自己快樂，也能運用自己的快樂讓別人也感到幸福，這樣的日子才會使人對每一天都充滿歡欣的感恩與期待吧，不是這樣的嗎?
謝謝你看到這裏，希望大家都能快快樂樂、隨心所欲的~
最近發生了些什麽事嗎？其實我已經忘記了，可能最近的生活真的比較忙吧，English, BM, Foundation Pharmacy, Physiology，通通都要找資料、做報告，弄得我有點頭昏腦漲的，而且最近好像真的會很容易忘記三分鐘前想好要做的事情，天啊，我覺得自己可能已經得了《腦海裏的橡皮擦》女主角的病，Alzheimer’s disease，不過還好，目前爲止我還是能夠清晰地勾勒出爸爸媽媽哥哥的樣子，不像女主角那麽可憐，連站在面前的老公都忘了是誰。。。
説到《腦海裏的橡皮擦》，由於佳雯也到IMU來念書，再加上她把愛看的電影DVD都帶上來的緣故，在那些報告還沒有壓得我穿不過氣來的時候，我跟他借了幾部戯，包括《橡》和《在世界的中心呼喊愛》。《在世界的中心呼喊愛》真的是一部很好看的電影，雖然題材不外是愛情故事，可是演員們細膩的演出，令人動容的眼神，著實讓我感動了好久，雖然沒有在電腦面前掉淚，可是我知道我的心裏的確哭過了一遍。。。
其實在吉隆坡待了那麽久，對很多人都已經釋懷了，雖然很開心地跟兒子說要為他找個爸爸，也跟其他人很三八地說過哪個學長很帥、哪個學長很體貼，可是啊跟我熟的人一定知道，我是個不折不扣的孬種，自己清楚自己長得一副什麽樣子，在家發發花痴也總好過跑去嚇學長，接著淪落到男人看到我就避而遠之，什麽學長、朋友通通免談，靠！我仍然擁有著我捍衛已久的尊嚴，不需要活得那麽低聲下氣。。。話雖如此，我卻依然寂寞。。。
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最近吳若權出了一本10万字的長篇小説，名為《你知不知道我好愛你》，星洲日報現在正在連載，看過它的故事大綱，大概是一個17嵗的少女和一個成功商人之間的故事，雖然聼起來有點怪怪的，可是正是這樣的情節讓我這個曾經有戀父情結的人感到很有興趣，也許這個星期有空的話可以去書局看看吧，把它抱回家細細品味畢竟沒有每天追連載那種騷不到骨子裏的篇幅那麽令人憂鬱，每天都經歷一次期待與失落，再這樣下去的人生不是辦法。。。
星期一那天，是凱旋的生日，前一天晚上眼睛都快眯上了，可是還是很雀躍地等待12點正的來臨，可以給這個好朋友送上最準時的祝福，誰知打去了幾次，不是叫我等10分鐘，就是叫我等5分鐘。說實在，有點生氣了，爲什麽我必須是等待的那個，而不是後來插隊的那些？？可是用另一個比較阿Q的角度想：因爲我們是好朋友啊，如果聊起來的話那可是會天南地北的咧，別人打不進來會怎麽想？他們“應該”沒有我和凱旋這樣的感情，或許他們真的會覺得打不進來很煩，接著就不打來了，那這種罪名我得擔當嗎？不，不可以，所以我必須大方，大方得我直接給凱旋一個訊息，說我累了先睡了，結果過沒多久凱旋好像有miss call我，可是我看到的時候已經是隔天的事了，算是一次無心的錯過吧？
同一天，神廟那裏普度慶中原，人在吉隆坡的我不能回去，只能通過和媽媽的電話知道那裏熱鬧的情況。從小到大，神廟的每年兩次的宴會我都不曾缺席，總覺得我本來就應該在那兒的，可是這次，是我第一次沒有到那裏去，心裏真的好失落，總認爲我失去了一些什麽。。。
星期二一大早睡醒的時候，知道自己躺在那張熟悉卻又有幾分陌生的床鋪上，突然有種很豁然開朗的感覺，其實不管是凱旋的生日還是神廟的普度日，雖然我失去了，可是一切都已經過去了，我必須揪著這些改變不了的事情讓自己煩躁個幾天嗎？不可以啊，帶著遺憾的心情跟著地球自轉幾圈，那豈不是辜負了那個辛苦背負著我的地球嗎？這樣對它太不公平了吧。。。
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突然有種想投稿的雅興，想自己有時也寫寫文章，讓自己多點書卷兒味，可是總覺得自己的華文水平已經不復當年，搞不好寫出來的東西經過鳳玉老師一批，大概又是七八十個字被狠狠地、不留情面地刪去。。。不過想想，如果只是在自己的部落格發發牢騷，其實也應該可以磨出一點屬於自己的所謂風格吧，不需要別人的批判，只要自己開心，管他文法標點符號，只要你能明白我在說什麽，其他的也通通只是小菜一碟，人生嘛，就是要讓自己快樂，也能運用自己的快樂讓別人也感到幸福，這樣的日子才會使人對每一天都充滿歡欣的感恩與期待吧，不是這樣的嗎?
謝謝你看到這裏，希望大家都能快快樂樂、隨心所欲的~
Sunday, 31 July 2005
2005/07/30 09:41pm
剛剛才洗完澡，把所有的東西整理好，再把notebook連接好，就坐到書桌前開始打我的blog了。。。
今天7月30號，知道是什麽日子嗎？是庭妹妹和英達來我吉隆坡新家的日子耶~~~ 真的好開心哦，之前還在想說庭妹應該會到9月多才可能來找我，沒想到今天就可以見到幾個月不見的庭妹了~~~ 只可惜，佳雯今天去了她堂哥那裏，不然的話我們四個人就可以聊個沒完沒了了，哈哈~
在food avenue那裏吃完實在不怎麽樣的午餐之後，我就把他們領到我家來了，一屁股坐進我的房間，姐妹倆就忙著聊最近各自身邊發生的事，把可憐的英達冷落在一邊悶悶地看報紙，真是不好意思卻又無可奈何啊。。。
最最最最最最最重要的就是，今晚的晚餐是我親自下廚的哦，我煮了炒雞肉，蠔油生菜還有煎蛋，而英達呢就幫我煮了一鍋釀豆腐湯和剛好夠我們3個人吃的飯，除了蠔油生菜之外，雞肉和雞蛋都咸了點，至於英達的湯呢庭妹說淡了一點，不過啊吃得開心最重要，看到他們都喜歡我做的菜，還真是有點驕傲呢，誰說慧云我是嬌嬌女啦，我可是會做飯的耶，雖然鹹味的拿捏還不是很好，可是這只是經過兩個星期的“實習”耶，想著想著還真是有點飄飄然的感覺呢，呵呵。。。
吃過晚餐之後，庭妹和英達本來打算7點就要走人，然後庭妹去外婆家，英達回宿舍，可是啊我們又決定再一次狠心地把英達抛到一邊（哦不，這一次更狠，我們直接把他丟到客廳去。。。）姐妹倆就窩在房裏，聊了一些只屬於我們的秘密，聊著聊著就到8點半了，哈哈，可憐的英達就在客廳把小叮噹、F1和馬來新聞看完了，才盼到我們慢慢地從房裏摸出來，收拾了一下東西，大概接近9點就離開了。。。
其實今天最大的收穫，就是可以和庭妹面對面聊了一個多小時，把之前我們發生的、卻沒機會告訴對方的事情通通一次過給對方update了，感覺上就像是把心裏囤積了很久的貨品通通清倉完畢，心裏也變得輕盈好多。。。聊了很多，朋友、感情。。。今天庭妹看到我第一眼就說“云姐姐你變得好成熟~”可是跟庭妹聊過之後，我卻也覺得庭妹成熟了很多，大家真的都長大了吧。。。有些時候，父母總是覺得我們這個年紀的孩子除了念書的壓力之外，不該會有什麽煩惱，也不該會有太成熟的想法的，可是我總覺得，其實我們都有了自己應有的想法，而且往往都比父母們知道的都還要成熟、有見地。。。正因爲這樣我們承受的除了孩子該有的壓力，也夾雜著成人的愁緒，19嵗的過渡期，希望往後再次回味時，淡淡的香味足以彌蓋不經意的苦意。。。（這一段，應該只有庭妹才明白個中的含義吧。。。）
哎喲，11點了，該睡了，如果醒得早應該還可以再讀一讀那個實際上只有0.8秒卻耗了我幾天的心臟周期，唉~~ 晚安囖。。。
今天7月30號，知道是什麽日子嗎？是庭妹妹和英達來我吉隆坡新家的日子耶~~~ 真的好開心哦，之前還在想說庭妹應該會到9月多才可能來找我，沒想到今天就可以見到幾個月不見的庭妹了~~~ 只可惜，佳雯今天去了她堂哥那裏，不然的話我們四個人就可以聊個沒完沒了了，哈哈~
在food avenue那裏吃完實在不怎麽樣的午餐之後，我就把他們領到我家來了，一屁股坐進我的房間，姐妹倆就忙著聊最近各自身邊發生的事，把可憐的英達冷落在一邊悶悶地看報紙，真是不好意思卻又無可奈何啊。。。
最最最最最最最重要的就是，今晚的晚餐是我親自下廚的哦，我煮了炒雞肉，蠔油生菜還有煎蛋，而英達呢就幫我煮了一鍋釀豆腐湯和剛好夠我們3個人吃的飯，除了蠔油生菜之外，雞肉和雞蛋都咸了點，至於英達的湯呢庭妹說淡了一點，不過啊吃得開心最重要，看到他們都喜歡我做的菜，還真是有點驕傲呢，誰說慧云我是嬌嬌女啦，我可是會做飯的耶，雖然鹹味的拿捏還不是很好，可是這只是經過兩個星期的“實習”耶，想著想著還真是有點飄飄然的感覺呢，呵呵。。。
吃過晚餐之後，庭妹和英達本來打算7點就要走人，然後庭妹去外婆家，英達回宿舍，可是啊我們又決定再一次狠心地把英達抛到一邊（哦不，這一次更狠，我們直接把他丟到客廳去。。。）姐妹倆就窩在房裏，聊了一些只屬於我們的秘密，聊著聊著就到8點半了，哈哈，可憐的英達就在客廳把小叮噹、F1和馬來新聞看完了，才盼到我們慢慢地從房裏摸出來，收拾了一下東西，大概接近9點就離開了。。。
其實今天最大的收穫，就是可以和庭妹面對面聊了一個多小時，把之前我們發生的、卻沒機會告訴對方的事情通通一次過給對方update了，感覺上就像是把心裏囤積了很久的貨品通通清倉完畢，心裏也變得輕盈好多。。。聊了很多，朋友、感情。。。今天庭妹看到我第一眼就說“云姐姐你變得好成熟~”可是跟庭妹聊過之後，我卻也覺得庭妹成熟了很多，大家真的都長大了吧。。。有些時候，父母總是覺得我們這個年紀的孩子除了念書的壓力之外，不該會有什麽煩惱，也不該會有太成熟的想法的，可是我總覺得，其實我們都有了自己應有的想法，而且往往都比父母們知道的都還要成熟、有見地。。。正因爲這樣我們承受的除了孩子該有的壓力，也夾雜著成人的愁緒，19嵗的過渡期，希望往後再次回味時，淡淡的香味足以彌蓋不經意的苦意。。。（這一段，應該只有庭妹才明白個中的含義吧。。。）
哎喲，11點了，該睡了，如果醒得早應該還可以再讀一讀那個實際上只有0.8秒卻耗了我幾天的心臟周期，唉~~ 晚安囖。。。
Monday, 18 July 2005
2005/07/17 02:36pm
這個時候的我，已經在吉隆坡了，室友昨晚整理東西忙到太晚，現在在睡覺，剩我一個在客廳，一邊聼石康軍的歌一邊打blog。。。昨天二哥和媽媽把我載上來，媽媽幫我打掃房子，東抹抹西抹抹的，什麽都弄得乾乾淨淨的，剩下的時間還可以幫我把衣服都吊在衣櫥裏，讓我省下了不少時間；嘿嘿我也沒有閑著哦，我和二哥在客廳看著説明書，花了一個下午把我的書桌書櫥給“拼”出來了，之後二哥還幫我洗了冷氣，抹了風扇，幫了曬衣服的繩子。。。哇做了好多好多事，不知不覺就到六點了，沖好涼之後我們就一起去吃晚餐，然後他們接近晚上七點半就開車囘新山了。。。
報了那麽多的流水帳，想說的是，我又離開了溫暖的狗窩，除了室友之外，就剩我一個人了。。。昨晚在二哥媽媽離開后、室友回來之前的那段時間，把房間剩下的零零碎碎的工作完成，刹那間，我又哭了。。。哎喲，我好討厭那麽善感的自己，動不動就哭哭哭，可是眼淚就是沒辦法控制地拼命飆。。。其實本來已經習慣了吉隆坡的生活了，可是不知怎麽的，和媽媽二哥說了再見后關上大門，心就一直往下沉沉沉，眼淚也開始醖釀了。。。原來我是個既怕孤單又怕寂寞的人，本來我以爲我只怕寂寞，不怕孤單，可是漸漸地我發現我以前對孤單的定義有點偏差，怎麽說呢。。。我以爲能夠把自己關在房間裏一整天就是不怕孤單，可是那是因爲我知道房門外有人在，整間房子我不是一個人的，所以我才能安心地待在房間，不會去想到“孤單”“害怕”的感覺。。。
剛剛在洗衣服的時候，媽媽打電話來找我聊天，今天禮拜天爸爸和二哥都出門了，就剩下媽媽一個人在家，之前的一個月都會有我陪著她。。。媽媽打來就是問我東西收拾好了沒，然後再跟我說昨天和今天家裏發生了什麽事。。。我以爲昨晚只有我一個人睡不著，每個鐘頭都爬起來一次，原來媽媽也是一樣…“昨晚本來回到新山已經很累了，躺在床上卻睡不著，想到你回來才一個月，現在又回去了，家裏接下來幾個月又聼不到你的聲音了。。。”鼻頭痠痠的，卻又強忍著哽咽，說媽媽好肉麻。。。又聼媽媽說昨晚二哥十一點到家之後一直在跟爸爸抱怨“不是講好我跟媽媽在阿云那裏陪她過一夜,隔天才回來囖，剛才又打電話催我們回來，要兩個禮拜后才可以看到她了咧。。。”鼻頭又再痠到不行了，沒辦法講話了，只能跟媽媽打哈哈。。。
還好這次是跟一群好朋友一起搬進來住，否則以我這種情緒，怎麽跟新朋友培養感情啊？？唉，多愁善感的慧云，你夠了吧，都19嵗了，淚腺還是那麽發達哦。。。
報了那麽多的流水帳，想說的是，我又離開了溫暖的狗窩，除了室友之外，就剩我一個人了。。。昨晚在二哥媽媽離開后、室友回來之前的那段時間，把房間剩下的零零碎碎的工作完成，刹那間，我又哭了。。。哎喲，我好討厭那麽善感的自己，動不動就哭哭哭，可是眼淚就是沒辦法控制地拼命飆。。。其實本來已經習慣了吉隆坡的生活了，可是不知怎麽的，和媽媽二哥說了再見后關上大門，心就一直往下沉沉沉，眼淚也開始醖釀了。。。原來我是個既怕孤單又怕寂寞的人，本來我以爲我只怕寂寞，不怕孤單，可是漸漸地我發現我以前對孤單的定義有點偏差，怎麽說呢。。。我以爲能夠把自己關在房間裏一整天就是不怕孤單，可是那是因爲我知道房門外有人在，整間房子我不是一個人的，所以我才能安心地待在房間，不會去想到“孤單”“害怕”的感覺。。。
剛剛在洗衣服的時候，媽媽打電話來找我聊天，今天禮拜天爸爸和二哥都出門了，就剩下媽媽一個人在家，之前的一個月都會有我陪著她。。。媽媽打來就是問我東西收拾好了沒，然後再跟我說昨天和今天家裏發生了什麽事。。。我以爲昨晚只有我一個人睡不著，每個鐘頭都爬起來一次，原來媽媽也是一樣…“昨晚本來回到新山已經很累了，躺在床上卻睡不著，想到你回來才一個月，現在又回去了，家裏接下來幾個月又聼不到你的聲音了。。。”鼻頭痠痠的，卻又強忍著哽咽，說媽媽好肉麻。。。又聼媽媽說昨晚二哥十一點到家之後一直在跟爸爸抱怨“不是講好我跟媽媽在阿云那裏陪她過一夜,隔天才回來囖，剛才又打電話催我們回來，要兩個禮拜后才可以看到她了咧。。。”鼻頭又再痠到不行了，沒辦法講話了，只能跟媽媽打哈哈。。。
還好這次是跟一群好朋友一起搬進來住，否則以我這種情緒，怎麽跟新朋友培養感情啊？？唉，多愁善感的慧云，你夠了吧，都19嵗了，淚腺還是那麽發達哦。。。
Saturday, 16 July 2005
just happened to pass by...
yeah finally I can type my blog directly here …
going to KL tomorrow, early in the morning, my brother fetching me there … wow, I have been in Johor for 1 month already, how time flies … tomorrow I will be going back to my normal life, I mean no more luxurious enjoying, nice mummy’s cooking, shopping everyday …
but never mind, I gotta get used to this, so that I won’t be crying for 1 week again … will I be like that ? erm … honestly no idea ^^
thought of yesterday’s singing contest … Hagen is out ~~~~~~ oh my God, he’s so handsome, I thought all the girls will simply call to support him, but then I was not sad about it, according to their performances yesterday, he ought to be out …
don’t feel like typing much now … maybe you guys wil see me few days after … gotta miss me k ??? smuakies~~
going to KL tomorrow, early in the morning, my brother fetching me there … wow, I have been in Johor for 1 month already, how time flies … tomorrow I will be going back to my normal life, I mean no more luxurious enjoying, nice mummy’s cooking, shopping everyday …
but never mind, I gotta get used to this, so that I won’t be crying for 1 week again … will I be like that ? erm … honestly no idea ^^
thought of yesterday’s singing contest … Hagen is out ~~~~~~ oh my God, he’s so handsome, I thought all the girls will simply call to support him, but then I was not sad about it, according to their performances yesterday, he ought to be out …
don’t feel like typing much now … maybe you guys wil see me few days after … gotta miss me k ??? smuakies~~
hehe, today’s post…a nice passage…
呜呜呜~~~~真的好感人的
桌两边，坐了男人和女人。
“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡的说着。
“我有老婆。”男人摸抛约旱氖稚系慕渲浮?nbsp;
“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我嘛？”
意料中的答案。男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。
24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。
白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。
真是不错的女人啊，可惜。
“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。
“我爱我妻子。”? 男人坚定的回答。
“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。
否则，公司的晚宴，怎么从来不见你带她来……”
女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。
静……
“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。
“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不同。你很特别。”
“你知道三年前的我，什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。
“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”
“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。
“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，***来发泄自己的欲求不满。还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”
“那怎么？”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么，让男人转变的。“因为她？”
“嗯。”
“她那个人，好像总能很容易就能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失；别太在乎眼前的事；让我尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。也许那感觉，就和现在你对我的感觉差不多。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我，只是听她的话。按照她说的，接受现实，知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上，稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”
男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。
“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具，也少的可怜。知道吗？结婚一年，我才给她买了第一颗钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的。”
“那阵子，烟酒弄得身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”
男人沉醉于那回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停的讲述着往事。
而女人，也丝毫没有打扰的意思，就静静地听着。
等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。
“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人歉意的笑了笑。
“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会， 作对不起她的事。”
“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服咯。”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了她的年纪，会更棒的。”
“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？
很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。
“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”
男人会心的笑了笑，转身要走。
“她漂亮嘛？”
“。。。。。。。。。。。。。。嗯，很美。”
男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛。发呆。
男人回到家，推开门，径直走到卧室，打开了台灯。
沿着床边，坐了下来。
“老婆，已经第四个了。干吗让我变成这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀 。干吗把我变成这么好，自己却先走了？ 我，我一个人，好孤单呀。”
男人哽咽的说着，终于泣不成声。
眼泪，一滴滴的从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里， 弥漫着的，是已逝女子，淡淡的温柔!
so touched … but so pityful … if I were that woman, I would rather my husband fall in love with another girl, another better girl …
桌两边，坐了男人和女人。
“我喜欢你。”女人一边摆弄着手里的酒杯，一边淡淡的说着。
“我有老婆。”男人摸抛约旱氖稚系慕渲浮?nbsp;
“我不在乎，我只想知道，你的感觉。你，喜欢我嘛？”
意料中的答案。男人抬起头，打量着对面的女人。
24岁，年轻，有朝气，相当不错的年纪。
白皙的皮肤，充满活力的身体，一双明亮的，会说话的眼睛。
真是不错的女人啊，可惜。
“如果你也喜欢我，我不介意作你的情人。”女人终于等不下去，追加了一句。
“我爱我妻子。”? 男人坚定的回答。
“你爱她？爱她什么？现在的她，应该已经年老色衰，见不得人了吧。
否则，公司的晚宴，怎么从来不见你带她来……”
女人还想继续，可接触到男人冷冷的目光后，打消了念头。
静……
“你喜欢我什么？”男人开口了。
“成熟，稳重，动作举止很有男人味，懂得关心人，很多很多。反正，和我之前见过的人不同。你很特别。”
“你知道三年前的我，什么样子？”男人点了颗烟。
“不知道。我不在乎，即使你坐过牢。”
“三年前，我就是你现在眼里的那些普通男人。”男人没理会女人，继续说。
“普通大学毕业，工作不顺心，整天喝酒，发脾气。对女孩子爱理不理，***来发泄自己的欲求不满。还因为去夜总会找小姐，被警察抓过。”
“那怎么？”女人有了兴趣，想知道是什么，让男人转变的。“因为她？”
“嗯。”
“她那个人，好像总能很容易就能看到事情的内在。教我很多东西，让我别太计较得失；别太在乎眼前的事；让我尽量待人和善。那时的我在她面前，就像少不更事的孩子。也许那感觉，就和现在你对我的感觉差不多。那时真的很奇怪，倔脾气的我，只是听她的话。按照她说的，接受现实，知道自己没用，就努力工作。那年年底，工作上，稍微有了起色，我们结婚了。”
男人弹了弹烟灰，继续说着。
“那时，真是苦日子。两个人，一张床，家里的家具，也少的可怜。知道吗？结婚一年，我才给她买了第一颗钻戒，存了大半年的钱呢。当然，是背着她存的。若她知道了，是肯定不让的。”
“那阵子，烟酒弄得身体不好。大冬天的，她每天晚上睡前还要给我熬汤喝。那味道，也只有她做得出。”
男人沉醉于那回忆里，忘记了时间，只是不停的讲述着往事。
而女人，也丝毫没有打扰的意思，就静静地听着。
等男人注意到时间，已经晚上10点了。
“啊，对不起，没注意时间，已经这么晚了。”男人歉意的笑了笑。
“现在，你可以理解嘛？我不可能，也不会， 作对不起她的事。”
“啊，知道了。输给这样子的人，心服口服咯。”女人无奈地摇了摇头。“不过我到了她的年纪，会更棒的。”
“嗯。那就可以找到更好的男人。不是吗？
很晚了，家里的汤要冷了，我送你回去。”男人站起身，想送女人。
“不了，我自己回去可以了。”女人摆了摆手。“回去吧，别让她等急了。”
男人会心的笑了笑，转身要走。
“她漂亮嘛？”
“。。。。。。。。。。。。。。嗯，很美。”
男人的身影消失在夜色中，留下女人，对着蜡烛。发呆。
男人回到家，推开门，径直走到卧室，打开了台灯。
沿着床边，坐了下来。
“老婆，已经第四个了。干吗让我变成这么好，好多人喜欢我呀。搞不好，我会变心呀 。干吗把我变成这么好，自己却先走了？ 我，我一个人，好孤单呀。”
男人哽咽的说着，终于泣不成声。
眼泪，一滴滴的从男人的脸颊流下，打在手心里的相框上。昏暗的灯光中，旧照片里， 弥漫着的，是已逝女子，淡淡的温柔!
so touched … but so pityful … if I were that woman, I would rather my husband fall in love with another girl, another better girl …
Wednesday, 13 July 2005
2005/07/12 10:52pm
suddenly had a strong feeling that my English is rusting, erm, the rusting reaction should be second order, which is proportional to the time I spent to play and the days I speak mandarin thoroughly without English… ha-ha, well I doubt my chemistry is rusting too … *thinking*
just switched on my laptop, for no reason, maybe I just felt like typing something while listening to Jones’s songs… yeah the singer I introduced in previous post before, he really possesses very nice voice and it’s very comfortable to listen to his songs during the night … and I suppose after this I will be listening Jay’s songs… actually I had already disliked Jay a little bit, maybe I have already got fed up with his music, but that day I was watching the singing contest organized by channel U, “絕對Superstar”, there was one contestant sang Jay’s 藉口, it’s damn nice!! And only then I knew that this song got very nice lyrics, how could I listen to七里香 for only once and then simply dumped it into my cupboard ??!!??
And that superstar contest, I really don’t know what happened to Singaporeans, how could they vote for someone who obviously cannot sing well, instead of someone who has the ability to perform a very difficult song in perfect way??? Well I think the moral value of this contest might be “it’s really important to have as many as possible friends, so that during this type of contest they can really pour out their money to call to support you”!!!!!!!!!!! #&*(*&^$$ %^&*() really angry over this ~~ But then I will always support my favorite contestant, Derrick, he’s the best ever ^^
Ooops, I am yawning, I suppose I am tired, gotta put an end here. Love you guys ^^
Thursday, 7 July 2005
2005/07/07
Actually when I started to type my blog, as usual, I was typing the 1st paragraph to explain why I didn’t post my blog for few days, but suddenly, I thought of something, then I erased everything I had typed. THIS IS MY BLOG, why should I always try to explain why I didn’t post, is it so important to those reading my blog? Maybe yeah, it is, but since I am here, those my friends should felt happier for my appearance rather than waiting for my explanation, shouldn’t they? Well, I spent one paragraph to explain AGAIN~~
Monday, I went to my 3rd uncle’s house, with my mum, to give my cousin sister the red packet, she’s getting married on Saturday. Actually I knew this two weeks ago I suppose, but the thing that surprised me is, she is actually the same age with me, maybe few months elder, while her husband is few years older than her … erm, maybe I shouldn’t feel surprised, as we all know sometimes, accident does happen (sorry to say it bluntly) but yet, when I went to her house, she showed me the pictures taken, I was quite … erm … how to say? If you were an adult, obviously you wouldn’t felt too shocked to see your peer getting married before you, but the girl I know, is my 19-year-old cousin sister, can you guys imagine my feeling? Sigh, until now my dad still teased me that I haven’t got myself a boyfriend, not mention to HUSBAND, ha-ha~~~
Wednesday, I got my 1st semester result at 10:30am, wow~~ I passed all my subjects, with 4As and 1B, ha-ha, I am so proud of myself…. Aiyo I am just bluffing, you guys don’t know how nervous I was since I came back from KL, because according to IMU exam rules and regulation, if one couldn’t pass any one or more than one subjects, one should resit for the exam one week before 2nd semester, before proceeding to 2nd semester, so can you imagine if my dad knew that I didn’t pass, and I have to rush back to resit, wouldn’t he kill me?? Ha-ha, but in fact, I PASSED ~~~
Thursday, I was watching the result of the channel U superstar contest, before the result released, I was discussing with my daddy, saying that the contestant M5 William is the best among all, and I even told my dad that if William got eliminated then it proved the injustice in the world, and the fact is, the result did prove it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD, does it mean “no friends = no chance”?? I hate it man ~ I liked William!!! Humph, and that F4 Li-Jun she was not good also, I don’t know how come F3 got eliminated instead of her???!!!
Erm, so far should be this, I think I got to stop here, before my dad off the main switch directly, ha-ha, good night everyone ^^
Wednesday, 6 July 2005
05 July 09:27am
haha, I like this time …..
actually already typed the blog at home, but I saved it in my laptop and now I am using the desktop at my old house … maybe next time, few days after ….
just wanna come and let everyone know that I am still alive, haha, having great time at Johor, tomorrow I will be going out with my wife also, haha, so happy, for about 9 months I didn’t see her already *shocked* how time flies ~~
anyway, gotta stop here, don’t want to spend the space here bullshiting, hehe, good day to everyone, love ya ~~
actually already typed the blog at home, but I saved it in my laptop and now I am using the desktop at my old house … maybe next time, few days after ….
just wanna come and let everyone know that I am still alive, haha, having great time at Johor, tomorrow I will be going out with my wife also, haha, so happy, for about 9 months I didn’t see her already *shocked* how time flies ~~
anyway, gotta stop here, don’t want to spend the space here bullshiting, hehe, good day to everyone, love ya ~~
Friday, 1 July 2005
for dear magichera~~
@Magichera: Happy to see you, a super big fans of hongming also, posting at my blog … surely I won’t mind posting the lyrics here, I am always glad to share my favourite music with my friends ^^
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愛我的人和我愛的人
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盼不到我愛的人 我知道我願意再等
疼不了愛我的人 片刻柔情他騙不了人
我不是無情的人 卻將你傷的最深
我不忍 我不能
別再認真忘了我的人
離不開我愛的人 我知道愛需要緣份
放不下愛我的人 因為了解他多麼認真
為什麼最真的心 碰不到最好的人
我不問 我不能
擁在懷中直到它變冷
愛我的人對我癡心不悔
我卻為我愛的人甘心一生傷悲
在乎的人始終不對
誰對誰不必虛偽
愛我的人為我付出一切
我卻為我愛的人流淚狂亂心碎
愛與被愛同樣受罪
為什麼不懂拒絕癡情的包圍
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I like this song very much also … once it indicated my mind thoroughly … hope you’ll like it … do you mind leaving your msn id here ? we might be able to chat there … or you can go over hongming’s official website : http://www.chrisyu.idv.tw/documate.asp
Tuesday, 21 June 2005
愛中飛行 – 石康軍
I think … I have fell in love in Jones’s voice … very nice duet sang with Shin ….
愛中飛行(by 石康軍)
曲：信 詞：信&許常德
曲：信 詞：信&許常德
用了情 聽你唱了一了百了的表情
葬了心 再次讓自己透明
我靠近 只會更看清妳向他接近
怎麼挺 才能陪你到絕境
用盡了所有力氣學他的強硬
末日來臨讓妳抱的更緊
曾相信堅持能夠讓妳不灰心
失去他我仍能給你真心
我們像三隻孤鷹在愛中飛行
妳追他的幻影我卻追妳重傷的追尋
眼淚在這場遊戲從來不肯停
就算我用生命送妳遠行也不停
每一次 當妳遠遠望著我的眼神
他的心為妳流淚到天明
我的夜 為每個聽眾哭喊著愛情只有他
只為妳一人擔心
妳愛我只能夠唱一首歌回應
緣份太短怎麼讓妳安心
我的夢在妳之前就已經約定
永遠是他給得起的光陰
我們像三隻孤鷹在愛中飛行
我愛你但我付不出太實在的愛情
不要妳費盡一輩子才能清醒
陪在妳身邊始終是他 的身影
我們像三隻孤鷹在愛中飛行 我愛你
(信:)但我付不出太實在的愛情
(石:)但我付得出最實在的愛情
石:(就算)妳費盡一輩子才能清醒 陪在你身邊的始終是(我)的身影
(信:)你不清醒
it’s really nice …… I like him ….
A very nice passage, sent to me, by chuchien …
I like this passage …. it’s nice indeed …
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The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn’t already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder.
I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being.
She said, “Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I’m eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?” I laughed and enthusiastically responded, “Of course you may!” and she gave me a giant squeeze.
“Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?” I asked. She jokingly replied, “I’m here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids…”
“No seriously,” I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. “I always dreamed of having a college education and now I’m getting one!” she told me.
After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this “time machine” as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.
Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.
At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I’ll never forget what she taught us.. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor.
Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, “I’m sorry I’m so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I’ll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know.” As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, “We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.
There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You’ve got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.
We have so many people walking around who are dead and don’t even know it!
There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up.
If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don’t do one productive thing, you will turn twenty y ears old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything will turn eighty-eight.
Anybody can grow older. That doesn’t take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets. The elderly usually don’t have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets.”
She concluded her speech by courageously singing “The Rose.” She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives.
At the year’s end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it’s never too late to be all you can possibly be.
When you finish reading this, please send this peaceful word of advice to your friends and family, they’ll really enjoy it! These words have been passed along in loving memory of ROSE.
REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.
We make a Living by what we get; we make a Life by what we give.
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and because of this, I went to find the lyrics of the rose, actually I heard this song before, it’s also quite nice, very soothing tune and nice lyrics … may you have the same feeling as I ….
THE ROSE
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed
It’s the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It’s the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It’s the one who won’t be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun’s love,
in the spring
Becomes the rose
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The first day of school our professor introduced himself and challenged us to get to know someone we didn’t already know. I stood up to look around when a gentle hand touched my shoulder.
I turned around to find a wrinkled, little old lady beaming up at me with a smile that lit up her entire being.
She said, “Hi handsome. My name is Rose. I’m eighty-seven years old. Can I give you a hug?” I laughed and enthusiastically responded, “Of course you may!” and she gave me a giant squeeze.
“Why are you in college at such a young, innocent age?” I asked. She jokingly replied, “I’m here to meet a rich husband, get married, and have a couple of kids…”
“No seriously,” I asked. I was curious what may have motivated her to be taking on this challenge at her age. “I always dreamed of having a college education and now I’m getting one!” she told me.
After class we walked to the student union building and shared a chocolate milkshake. We became instant friends. Every day for the next three months we would leave class together and talk nonstop. I was always mesmerized listening to this “time machine” as she shared her wisdom and experience with me.
Over the course of the year, Rose became a campus icon and she easily made friends wherever she went. She loved to dress up and she reveled in the attention bestowed upon her from the other students. She was living it up.
At the end of the semester we invited Rose to speak at our football banquet. I’ll never forget what she taught us.. She was introduced and stepped up to the podium. As she began to deliver her prepared speech, she dropped her three by five cards on the floor.
Frustrated and a little embarrassed she leaned into the microphone and simply said, “I’m sorry I’m so jittery. I gave up beer for Lent and this whiskey is killing me! I’ll never get my speech back in order so let me just tell you what I know.” As we laughed she cleared her throat and began, “We do not stop playing because we are old; we grow old because we stop playing.
There are only four secrets to staying young, being happy and achieving success. You have to laugh and find humor every day. You’ve got to have a dream. When you lose your dreams, you die.
We have so many people walking around who are dead and don’t even know it!
There is a huge difference between growing older and growing up.
If you are nineteen years old and lie in bed for one full year and don’t do one productive thing, you will turn twenty y ears old. If I am eighty-seven years old and stay in bed for a year and never do anything will turn eighty-eight.
Anybody can grow older. That doesn’t take any talent or ability. The idea is to grow up by always finding opportunity in change. Have no regrets. The elderly usually don’t have regrets for what we did, but rather for things we did not do. The only people who fear death are those with regrets.”
She concluded her speech by courageously singing “The Rose.” She challenged each of us to study the lyrics and live them out in our daily lives.
At the year’s end Rose finished the college degree she had begun all those years ago. One week after graduation Rose died peacefully in her sleep. Over two thousand college students attended her funeral in tribute to the wonderful woman who taught by example that it’s never too late to be all you can possibly be.
When you finish reading this, please send this peaceful word of advice to your friends and family, they’ll really enjoy it! These words have been passed along in loving memory of ROSE.
REMEMBER, GROWING OLDER IS MANDATORY. GROWING UP IS OPTIONAL.
We make a Living by what we get; we make a Life by what we give.
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and because of this, I went to find the lyrics of the rose, actually I heard this song before, it’s also quite nice, very soothing tune and nice lyrics … may you have the same feeling as I ….
THE ROSE
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you, its only seed
It’s the heart, afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It’s the dream, afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It’s the one who won’t be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul, afraid of dying
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
And you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed
That with the sun’s love,
in the spring
Becomes the rose
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