well, about the reunion … I think it’s comfirmed that I can’t go… as my brother will never spend some time to send me there … his schedule can’t be changed anyway …
just now daddy called me, saying that he will try to settle this for me, after his return from trip at next Thursday … maybe still have a bit, only a bit chance …
last night I dreamt of Tzyy Huei again, I have been dreaming of him for 3 nights!!! haha, how badly I miss him huh?
just finished cleaning the old house … tired indeed …
p/s: by the way, if I can go there early, how early can I go ???
Saturday, 22 January 2005
Friday, 21 January 2005
shocked...
just now, received ying taat’s msg, saying that Jie Shun’s father had passed away this morning … he didn’t know much but he hoped that we can give some opinions, about what to do …
before that, I once heard yonghau said jieshun’s father has not been too well recently and the condition seemed become worse … Never expected, it happened so fast …
well, what I can say to jieshun is ” jie2 ai1 shun4 bian4″ … truly hope that he can recover soon from this, of course I know that it’s very difficult to do so, losing father is definitely not an easy pain to overcome … but hopefully he can make it …
Think in a more positive way, his father will be free from pain, sadness, suffering … he might feel better to get rid of these … anyway, all the best to jieshun’s father in another world … and also all the best to Jieshun’s family …
before that, I once heard yonghau said jieshun’s father has not been too well recently and the condition seemed become worse … Never expected, it happened so fast …
well, what I can say to jieshun is ” jie2 ai1 shun4 bian4″ … truly hope that he can recover soon from this, of course I know that it’s very difficult to do so, losing father is definitely not an easy pain to overcome … but hopefully he can make it …
Think in a more positive way, his father will be free from pain, sadness, suffering … he might feel better to get rid of these … anyway, all the best to jieshun’s father in another world … and also all the best to Jieshun’s family …
failed...
Just had a talk with my brother just now, seems like I can’t do anything but seeing you all go for the gathering without me …
man, SUPER DOWN ah , what to do now ???????????????????????????????????????????
seems like my dad support my brother and said,” just don’t go if your friends insisted to have this time as gathering !”
then? how ? I am helpless now… really … cannot tahan already …
man, SUPER DOWN ah , what to do now ???????????????????????????????????????????
seems like my dad support my brother and said,” just don’t go if your friends insisted to have this time as gathering !”
then? how ? I am helpless now… really … cannot tahan already …
Thursday, 20 January 2005
so true...
你知道嗎？
人一旦上了年紀之後，身邊的朋友就會慢慢慢慢慢的離你遠去。
因為忙、盲、茫。
很多時候，我們總是各忙各的！
於是，開始想念起以前的朋友、老同學或是老同事。
寂寞的時候，總是不時地會想到要去翻看那些被壓在箱底多時的老舊照片，
然後開始細細的品味充滿酸、甜、苦、辣的過去。
看著照片回憶著當時的情況和藏在每個人心底的秘密；
仔細閱讀過往的信件，想讀出當時寄信人和自己讀信時的心情；
努力回想你打來的每一通電話，想用力的記起你說過的每一句話，
猜想著當時在話筒那一端的你的表情；捧著泛黃的記事本。
我小心翼的讀起在裡頭上演的每一段故事，
每一分每一秒都記錄的清清楚楚…
你知道嗎？最近的，其實最遠！
當我覺得你離我很近的時候，一伸手，抓住的卻是空氣。
當我覺得你離我很遠的時候，
不知道你是不是會用盡一切方法對我稍來消息。
最近的，其實最遠！
人們是不是擁有時都不珍惜..失去了才後悔莫及…
我只想說我們能成為好朋友..這份緣份得來不易…
那麼請記得…好好珍惜…
我們要在年老時…還能圍在一起話說當年…細看人生…
人一旦上了年紀之後，身邊的朋友就會慢慢慢慢慢的離你遠去。
因為忙、盲、茫。
很多時候，我們總是各忙各的！
於是，開始想念起以前的朋友、老同學或是老同事。
寂寞的時候，總是不時地會想到要去翻看那些被壓在箱底多時的老舊照片，
然後開始細細的品味充滿酸、甜、苦、辣的過去。
看著照片回憶著當時的情況和藏在每個人心底的秘密；
仔細閱讀過往的信件，想讀出當時寄信人和自己讀信時的心情；
努力回想你打來的每一通電話，想用力的記起你說過的每一句話，
猜想著當時在話筒那一端的你的表情；捧著泛黃的記事本。
我小心翼的讀起在裡頭上演的每一段故事，
每一分每一秒都記錄的清清楚楚…
你知道嗎？最近的，其實最遠！
當我覺得你離我很近的時候，一伸手，抓住的卻是空氣。
當我覺得你離我很遠的時候，
不知道你是不是會用盡一切方法對我稍來消息。
最近的，其實最遠！
人們是不是擁有時都不珍惜..失去了才後悔莫及…
我只想說我們能成為好朋友..這份緣份得來不易…
那麼請記得…好好珍惜…
我們要在年老時…還能圍在一起話說當年…細看人生…
sigh...
just finished watching TV with my daddy … while during this time, sms with my dear dar-dar …
well, maybe I should explain everything here … that 29/01 gathering, God knows how much I yearn to go, to see you all … but that day my future sis-in-law’s friend will hold the housewarming party and ask my sis-in-law to attend it. You know, my sis-in-law will definitely ask my brother to accompany her and then … my brother won’t be able to fetch me there …
and also, my brother currently put his girlfriend at the highest position and anything that affects their plan of going out must been prohibited … include me, his sister for 18 years …
I had asked my father before that, saying that this might be the last reunion with my classmates and I must be there, as I will be leaving for KL soon … my dad said yes, and he said ” ask your brother to fetch you there” … and now ? everything spoiled. My father will definitely be complaining that what a good time your friends chose and nao3 xiu1 cheng2 nu4 if I get angry over this matter, and in the end, I couldn’t even go out of my house …
and also, my father will never let me go by yours’ car, because for him, you all are new drivers … and he will never put his PRECIOUS daughter into the RISK , what should I do ? and of course, he won’t let me drive alone, let alone driving in the night, alone !
I yearn to see you all, really, so much … but how ??? I am frustrated over this now …
well, maybe I should explain everything here … that 29/01 gathering, God knows how much I yearn to go, to see you all … but that day my future sis-in-law’s friend will hold the housewarming party and ask my sis-in-law to attend it. You know, my sis-in-law will definitely ask my brother to accompany her and then … my brother won’t be able to fetch me there …
and also, my brother currently put his girlfriend at the highest position and anything that affects their plan of going out must been prohibited … include me, his sister for 18 years …
I had asked my father before that, saying that this might be the last reunion with my classmates and I must be there, as I will be leaving for KL soon … my dad said yes, and he said ” ask your brother to fetch you there” … and now ? everything spoiled. My father will definitely be complaining that what a good time your friends chose and nao3 xiu1 cheng2 nu4 if I get angry over this matter, and in the end, I couldn’t even go out of my house …
and also, my father will never let me go by yours’ car, because for him, you all are new drivers … and he will never put his PRECIOUS daughter into the RISK , what should I do ? and of course, he won’t let me drive alone, let alone driving in the night, alone !
I yearn to see you all, really, so much … but how ??? I am frustrated over this now …
some thought...
Yummy yummy~ just came back from the restaurant, had a wonderful dinner, which is paid by one of my daddy’s friend ( well, that’s the reason my dad don’t like to eat outside, everytime he meets anyone he knows, we will get a free meal … and, my dad doesn’t like it … )
We went to the restaurant which we go frequently in past ( because now we usually stay in Perling, and can’t really come back to Taman Johor just for dinner … ) and also, I saw a ” friend", who doesn’t even take a look at me …
She was my primary school classmate, we were quite good when we were in the same class, however, after graduation, we went to Foonyew together also, but since we were in different class, we became not that familiar as before, and also, she went astray and left FY when she was in Jr3 … the restaurant is owned by her father, she is helping out there …
I felt so sad whenever I saw her … because even she saw me, she won’t even have any emotion on her face, as if I am transparent ~
That’s the reason also, I felt so sad when everytime science3 got any gathering and I can’t go … I’m afraid that by the time I came back from KL or even Scotland, all of you will treat me just like my that girl friend … in the end, I might not get even one friend … horrible isn’t it ?
son, I knew that you’ll feel happy for me whenever I am in good mood and sad for my bad mood, but really sorry, I felt extremely bad after the dinner… need to recover from it … God bless …
We went to the restaurant which we go frequently in past ( because now we usually stay in Perling, and can’t really come back to Taman Johor just for dinner … ) and also, I saw a ” friend", who doesn’t even take a look at me …
She was my primary school classmate, we were quite good when we were in the same class, however, after graduation, we went to Foonyew together also, but since we were in different class, we became not that familiar as before, and also, she went astray and left FY when she was in Jr3 … the restaurant is owned by her father, she is helping out there …
I felt so sad whenever I saw her … because even she saw me, she won’t even have any emotion on her face, as if I am transparent ~
That’s the reason also, I felt so sad when everytime science3 got any gathering and I can’t go … I’m afraid that by the time I came back from KL or even Scotland, all of you will treat me just like my that girl friend … in the end, I might not get even one friend … horrible isn’t it ?
son, I knew that you’ll feel happy for me whenever I am in good mood and sad for my bad mood, but really sorry, I felt extremely bad after the dinner… need to recover from it … God bless …
brand new day...
well, woke up at 11am this morning, as I only reached home at 3am this morning, great isn’t it ?
of course, not going out by myself, but went to temple again with my family. Actually there was a big ceremony last night, to burn all those ” clothes” to all the deities … actually I don’t really know about those things, I just know how to give my help. Haha, maybe because I knew that I wouldn’t be at the temple on this day, next year, so I did the most job last night, running here and there, moving this and that, and last night seemed like I am the only female who dared to go near the fire to burn the paper money, haha ~
and also … had a phone talk with Kaixuan last night, 12am to 1am, about everything we both concern … sometimes really think that Kaixuan might suits me the best ( haha, I bet if Kaixuan saw that he would fainted in no time ^^ ) , somehow we both know each other better, and tend to tell each other everything … but I really don’t like the awkward relationship happened in our class … I just want us, science3 to be together forever, is it too hard to achieve ??
but last night my mood was not affected by the matters I discussed with Kaixuan … because I had something better to do … You know, haha, there is an uncle, whom actually I should call as ” gege “, as his father and my daddy are in the same rank, and I called his father ” uncle” already … alright, that gege, is the one, for me, who considered quite handsome since I was a child !! ( as our families are shi4 jiao1 for many years ) A middle-aged guy with no big big stomach, not bald-headed, fair skin, tall, have ying1 gou1 bi2 like Andy Lau … can imagine it ? handsome indeed right ? SO, last night while waiting for my father and brother, I just sat there to watch him for about 1 hour, haha ~
until 2:15 am, I felt really sleepy already. I went downstair and took a chair as my pillow and falled asleep. After 30 minutes, someone woke me up with his hand on my shoulder, I put my head high, my god it’s him ~~ haha, he just woke me up and said my daddy is ready to go. I looked at him with 迷蒙的眼神, and he also asked me in gentle tone, that when I will be going to KL … and I asked him whether he feel better for his sore throat and flu, we talked for 5 minutes I think … such a wonderful night … haha ~
somehow, I couldn’t kick the habit of admiring all those middle-aged but charming guys … haha~ I have already gone crazy ~~
anyway, good day for everyone, and also my daddy who suffered gastric pain today, caused by the alcohol he took last night …
of course, not going out by myself, but went to temple again with my family. Actually there was a big ceremony last night, to burn all those ” clothes” to all the deities … actually I don’t really know about those things, I just know how to give my help. Haha, maybe because I knew that I wouldn’t be at the temple on this day, next year, so I did the most job last night, running here and there, moving this and that, and last night seemed like I am the only female who dared to go near the fire to burn the paper money, haha ~
and also … had a phone talk with Kaixuan last night, 12am to 1am, about everything we both concern … sometimes really think that Kaixuan might suits me the best ( haha, I bet if Kaixuan saw that he would fainted in no time ^^ ) , somehow we both know each other better, and tend to tell each other everything … but I really don’t like the awkward relationship happened in our class … I just want us, science3 to be together forever, is it too hard to achieve ??
but last night my mood was not affected by the matters I discussed with Kaixuan … because I had something better to do … You know, haha, there is an uncle, whom actually I should call as ” gege “, as his father and my daddy are in the same rank, and I called his father ” uncle” already … alright, that gege, is the one, for me, who considered quite handsome since I was a child !! ( as our families are shi4 jiao1 for many years ) A middle-aged guy with no big big stomach, not bald-headed, fair skin, tall, have ying1 gou1 bi2 like Andy Lau … can imagine it ? handsome indeed right ? SO, last night while waiting for my father and brother, I just sat there to watch him for about 1 hour, haha ~
until 2:15 am, I felt really sleepy already. I went downstair and took a chair as my pillow and falled asleep. After 30 minutes, someone woke me up with his hand on my shoulder, I put my head high, my god it’s him ~~ haha, he just woke me up and said my daddy is ready to go. I looked at him with 迷蒙的眼神, and he also asked me in gentle tone, that when I will be going to KL … and I asked him whether he feel better for his sore throat and flu, we talked for 5 minutes I think … such a wonderful night … haha ~
somehow, I couldn’t kick the habit of admiring all those middle-aged but charming guys … haha~ I have already gone crazy ~~
anyway, good day for everyone, and also my daddy who suffered gastric pain today, caused by the alcohol he took last night …
Wednesday, 19 January 2005
simple day...
well, after taking a bath in the morning, my mood had became better than the previous night … somehow I am someone who tends to forget the things right after that moment …
today, went to the temple again. My mum asked me, before going out, whether I would like to bring my laptop along. After consideration, I said no, because I knew that I am going to spend a wonderful day there and not really want to keep myself at the office there surfing net, would be wasting my precious time ~
actually I didn’t do anything also, after helping all those aunties to fold the “paper money” ( what we called that ah? simply forgot … ) I just went to the car parking lot at the back of the temple. It has been the place I love the most, when I go to the temple I will definitely go there to stay more than 30 minutes.
there’s the only place that would let me calm myself down and think carefully about every move I am going to take. So nice there, no all those irritating noice, but only the sound made by the insects and birds. Just like the environment in the village … just nice …
And also, I met one of my friend there again. She was my neighbour, who is 1 year older than I , we became friends just because her father and my dad are friends for over 40 years!!! amazing isn’t it ? She was supposed to take her STPM, but she said that she can’t really spend her time on studying, and thus she chose to be a salesgirl. Erm, I don’t really know the actual title for her job, I just know she had to go here and there everyday, to promote the products.
Sometimes thinking of her, I would feel ” wow~ how capable she is ! ” because she is only 1 year older than I , and now she has much more social experience, while me, still staying at home watching TV waiting for the commencement of IMU …
sometimes there will have so many path for you to choose in your life … I don’t know which one would be the best, but I think I have chosen the one who suits me the best, so far. Hopefully Lynn, my that-salesgirl friend, had also made her best decision in her life.
All the best to all whom I know.
today, went to the temple again. My mum asked me, before going out, whether I would like to bring my laptop along. After consideration, I said no, because I knew that I am going to spend a wonderful day there and not really want to keep myself at the office there surfing net, would be wasting my precious time ~
actually I didn’t do anything also, after helping all those aunties to fold the “paper money” ( what we called that ah? simply forgot … ) I just went to the car parking lot at the back of the temple. It has been the place I love the most, when I go to the temple I will definitely go there to stay more than 30 minutes.
there’s the only place that would let me calm myself down and think carefully about every move I am going to take. So nice there, no all those irritating noice, but only the sound made by the insects and birds. Just like the environment in the village … just nice …
And also, I met one of my friend there again. She was my neighbour, who is 1 year older than I , we became friends just because her father and my dad are friends for over 40 years!!! amazing isn’t it ? She was supposed to take her STPM, but she said that she can’t really spend her time on studying, and thus she chose to be a salesgirl. Erm, I don’t really know the actual title for her job, I just know she had to go here and there everyday, to promote the products.
Sometimes thinking of her, I would feel ” wow~ how capable she is ! ” because she is only 1 year older than I , and now she has much more social experience, while me, still staying at home watching TV waiting for the commencement of IMU …
sometimes there will have so many path for you to choose in your life … I don’t know which one would be the best, but I think I have chosen the one who suits me the best, so far. Hopefully Lynn, my that-salesgirl friend, had also made her best decision in her life.
All the best to all whom I know.
Tuesday, 18 January 2005
nice...
the 3rd passage I am typing for today …
somehow, mood became blue once after 11pm … sigh, I should have already gone to bed instead of staying awake at this odd time … but, daddy and brother not yet come back … gonna wait for them …
just now was watching the taiwan tv serial 霹靂火 (well I know yonghau and kaixuan gonna laugh at me for this … ) actually I didn’t feel to watch tv today, not even thought of it. However, I turned on the TV and sat there, watching the programme but not really knowing how’s the story goes…
I think I am going crazy, indeed. Do you know the reason I watched 霹靂火 ? I just wanted to see the main role, Chen2 zhao1 rong2, who looks alike with my doctor-friend …
There’s something that only … 3 people know … that why I care him so much, as a very important person … I thought alot after listening to his words, made me unconscious of anything happened afterward.
How I admire him, that he could really treat everything with peaceful mind, and accept everything happened to him as his karma … after listening to his words, I suddenly think that I really care for too much, I really can’t put everything behind, because I CARE ~
Thinking, if one day I pass away, I would definitely feel regret towards to many things undone … too many words unsaid … I have alot of funny dreams needed to be realised, and so many words that I need to tell someone badly … because I care, that’s why I can’t get out of this …
God, what I am typing right now … ?? anyway, good night to everyone reading this. I wil be just fine after a good sleep …
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after I have finished typing the things above, it is 18 Jan already, so not more 3rd passage on 17 Jan but the very first passage on 18 Jan … haha, Happy birthday Jay Chou ~
somehow, mood became blue once after 11pm … sigh, I should have already gone to bed instead of staying awake at this odd time … but, daddy and brother not yet come back … gonna wait for them …
just now was watching the taiwan tv serial 霹靂火 (well I know yonghau and kaixuan gonna laugh at me for this … ) actually I didn’t feel to watch tv today, not even thought of it. However, I turned on the TV and sat there, watching the programme but not really knowing how’s the story goes…
I think I am going crazy, indeed. Do you know the reason I watched 霹靂火 ? I just wanted to see the main role, Chen2 zhao1 rong2, who looks alike with my doctor-friend …
There’s something that only … 3 people know … that why I care him so much, as a very important person … I thought alot after listening to his words, made me unconscious of anything happened afterward.
How I admire him, that he could really treat everything with peaceful mind, and accept everything happened to him as his karma … after listening to his words, I suddenly think that I really care for too much, I really can’t put everything behind, because I CARE ~
Thinking, if one day I pass away, I would definitely feel regret towards to many things undone … too many words unsaid … I have alot of funny dreams needed to be realised, and so many words that I need to tell someone badly … because I care, that’s why I can’t get out of this …
God, what I am typing right now … ?? anyway, good night to everyone reading this. I wil be just fine after a good sleep …
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after I have finished typing the things above, it is 18 Jan already, so not more 3rd passage on 17 Jan but the very first passage on 18 Jan … haha, Happy birthday Jay Chou ~
今天……
哈哈，今天決定再用華文打字，我可是考慮了很久的……
今天，我碰到了那個我很想見，卻很久沒見的朋友……感覺還好，並沒有很怪，只是大家都很疑惑爲什麽我們倆會一起從停車場走到神廟樓上，像是一起來的……不過我倒是很享受只有我們倆的這段路程……
似乎我們熟悉了彼此的習慣，他在做事的時候，我會自然地到一旁的欄杆等他，他也知道我會在那裏，做完事會來到我的身邊……聊的都是些客套話，不過他只是靜靜地看著我，就知道我最近的心情很苦悶，這一點說真的，讓我心裏覺得特幸福，呵呵~
我告訴他我捨不得我的朋友，他卻説這就是人生的“無常”，因爲放不下，所以會有人生的“苦”……他說他想去修行當和尚，想超脫一切輪回之苦。望著這個我認識了將近十年的大醫生，我並不因爲他說的這番話而對他產生陌生感，我知道他一直很崇尚這種心靈的寧靜，也就是這種甘於屈服于“人生無常”的心態，才會讓他到現在仍是孤家寡人吧……我只能說，我祝福他，畢竟這樣的人生目標並不容易達成，作爲他的……朋友（？），是該給予鼓勵……至於我嘛，就讓我繼續沉淪在輪回當中吧，我只想當個勇於抵抗“無常”的平凡人……
昨晚（嗯，應該是今天早上一點），找了我最愛的達達聊天。原本想說這麽久沒好好聊聊，應該說些開心的，結果我的語調在sms的字裏行間顯得越來越低沉，唉~難過……我向達達要了一份禮物，至於是什麽只有我們兩個知道，希望我真的會收到……達達，不能騙云姐哦，不然，我會怨你一輩子！
現在我還在神廟這裡，看著我那個醫生朋友的三弟的孩子，七個月大的寶寶，一直睜大了眼睛看著我，好可愛~難怪人家說世間上的寶寶都是天使的化身，看著他們就會讓人覺得像置身在天堂一樣！（p/s: 我剛剛抱寶寶的時候，她有點想哭著找媽媽，我突然想起動力火車的“搖籃曲”，於是便靠著寶寶的耳朵唱了起來，唱著唱著，小寶寶就不哭了，哈哈，真管用~）
今天，我碰到了那個我很想見，卻很久沒見的朋友……感覺還好，並沒有很怪，只是大家都很疑惑爲什麽我們倆會一起從停車場走到神廟樓上，像是一起來的……不過我倒是很享受只有我們倆的這段路程……
似乎我們熟悉了彼此的習慣，他在做事的時候，我會自然地到一旁的欄杆等他，他也知道我會在那裏，做完事會來到我的身邊……聊的都是些客套話，不過他只是靜靜地看著我，就知道我最近的心情很苦悶，這一點說真的，讓我心裏覺得特幸福，呵呵~
我告訴他我捨不得我的朋友，他卻説這就是人生的“無常”，因爲放不下，所以會有人生的“苦”……他說他想去修行當和尚，想超脫一切輪回之苦。望著這個我認識了將近十年的大醫生，我並不因爲他說的這番話而對他產生陌生感，我知道他一直很崇尚這種心靈的寧靜，也就是這種甘於屈服于“人生無常”的心態，才會讓他到現在仍是孤家寡人吧……我只能說，我祝福他，畢竟這樣的人生目標並不容易達成，作爲他的……朋友（？），是該給予鼓勵……至於我嘛，就讓我繼續沉淪在輪回當中吧，我只想當個勇於抵抗“無常”的平凡人……
昨晚（嗯，應該是今天早上一點），找了我最愛的達達聊天。原本想說這麽久沒好好聊聊，應該說些開心的，結果我的語調在sms的字裏行間顯得越來越低沉，唉~難過……我向達達要了一份禮物，至於是什麽只有我們兩個知道，希望我真的會收到……達達，不能騙云姐哦，不然，我會怨你一輩子！
現在我還在神廟這裡，看著我那個醫生朋友的三弟的孩子，七個月大的寶寶，一直睜大了眼睛看著我，好可愛~難怪人家說世間上的寶寶都是天使的化身，看著他們就會讓人覺得像置身在天堂一樣！（p/s: 我剛剛抱寶寶的時候，她有點想哭著找媽媽，我突然想起動力火車的“搖籃曲”，於是便靠著寶寶的耳朵唱了起來，唱著唱著，小寶寶就不哭了，哈哈，真管用~）
Monday, 17 January 2005
nothing special...
yeah me coming again ~ ( idiot! this is MY web !! )
actually I have no special things to share with you all … but as all of you that knows my family background well, you should know that, for me, NO NEWS MEANS GOOD NEWS ! that means today my daddy didn’t get angry for anything and also none of my family members did something wrong that may activate my dad’s anger … well, so that means today is a good day ? haha, funny indeed.
today just received the mail from the warden of the IMU hostel, telling me to check in at 12 or 13 Feb, that means 1 or 2 days before the commencement. Somehow feeling abit excited about it, because I am going to leave soon … these few days I really had the urge to run away from JB as soon as possible … but I haven’t finished packing my lugguage, I’m afraid that I might forget this and that … so gotta list out everything again so that I won’t miss anything and let my dad get another chance to pour the dog blood on my head, haha ~
and also another thing, remembered last time that Yahoo Kimo jiao1 you3 wang3 zhan4 that I went to register ? I made some friends there, some cute guys, but not yet familiar enough, maybe I can try to know more, then next time when I go to Taiwan, I won’t be afraid that I have no one to guide me ^^
and also ( somehow I am reporting my daily life as clear as possible ^^ ), tomorrow will be a big day for the temple I go frequently, and also … I will be able to see a friend, whom I didn’t see for few months I suppose … Quite miss him indeed, he’s considered a very special friend to me, of course not boyfriend, but a friend that always come to me whenever I have troubles, no matter how busy is he ( for your info, he’s a doctor with his own clinic, so he’s really busy with all those things … )
but somehow, a bit weird also, whenever thinking that I am really going to SEE him tomorrow … maybe this time I won’t treat him as someone really important … because something in my inner self , has changed. and …. so difficult to say out what exactly the feeling I am having now …
but anyway, I will try to appear normal to him. the most worrying thing now is … he might say me become fatter during the holiday, as he’s really concerned about my weight, as you know, a doctor, haha ~
actually I have no special things to share with you all … but as all of you that knows my family background well, you should know that, for me, NO NEWS MEANS GOOD NEWS ! that means today my daddy didn’t get angry for anything and also none of my family members did something wrong that may activate my dad’s anger … well, so that means today is a good day ? haha, funny indeed.
today just received the mail from the warden of the IMU hostel, telling me to check in at 12 or 13 Feb, that means 1 or 2 days before the commencement. Somehow feeling abit excited about it, because I am going to leave soon … these few days I really had the urge to run away from JB as soon as possible … but I haven’t finished packing my lugguage, I’m afraid that I might forget this and that … so gotta list out everything again so that I won’t miss anything and let my dad get another chance to pour the dog blood on my head, haha ~
and also another thing, remembered last time that Yahoo Kimo jiao1 you3 wang3 zhan4 that I went to register ? I made some friends there, some cute guys, but not yet familiar enough, maybe I can try to know more, then next time when I go to Taiwan, I won’t be afraid that I have no one to guide me ^^
and also ( somehow I am reporting my daily life as clear as possible ^^ ), tomorrow will be a big day for the temple I go frequently, and also … I will be able to see a friend, whom I didn’t see for few months I suppose … Quite miss him indeed, he’s considered a very special friend to me, of course not boyfriend, but a friend that always come to me whenever I have troubles, no matter how busy is he ( for your info, he’s a doctor with his own clinic, so he’s really busy with all those things … )
but somehow, a bit weird also, whenever thinking that I am really going to SEE him tomorrow … maybe this time I won’t treat him as someone really important … because something in my inner self , has changed. and …. so difficult to say out what exactly the feeling I am having now …
but anyway, I will try to appear normal to him. the most worrying thing now is … he might say me become fatter during the holiday, as he’s really concerned about my weight, as you know, a doctor, haha ~
Saturday, 15 January 2005
hurmp~
today went to school but can’t get the thing I want … sigh … poor advisor, getting bad memory and forgot to prepare the tui1 jian4 xin4 for me …
have nothing much to say actually… but these few days got few people came and post, saying that they liked this website and asked whether I can recommend them some other similar web …
well, what can I say is this web is set up by my son, so I think you can try to contact my son … but I can’t leave his details here, yihfeng, if you’re here, try to know what exactly happened …
but I must say, I love this web so much too …
have nothing much to say actually… but these few days got few people came and post, saying that they liked this website and asked whether I can recommend them some other similar web …
well, what can I say is this web is set up by my son, so I think you can try to contact my son … but I can’t leave his details here, yihfeng, if you’re here, try to know what exactly happened …
but I must say, I love this web so much too …
Friday, 14 January 2005
Long time no see...
Wow … such a long time I didn’t come over here to update my blog … well, it’s the server’s problem ^^
was in a quite bad mood actually … last night something happened in my house … so sad to say anything …
felt so helpless in house affairs, I could do nothing to stop those I wouldn’t want to happened … if others know what exactly happened, they might felt ” walao, like that also can angry ah ? “
before last night, one of those days, my dad asked me whether I will feel bored and sad to leave home for KL, I thought I will, really, but after last night, I think that I should be EXTREMELY EXCITED to leave for IMU … because I will be totally free from all those scolding …
discovered one thing recently : I tend to drive faster on road whenever I heard any scolding, nagging, or thought of those unhappy things … gonna stop myself from driving if this situation continues …
well, hopefully our God will bless us all … hopefully …
was in a quite bad mood actually … last night something happened in my house … so sad to say anything …
felt so helpless in house affairs, I could do nothing to stop those I wouldn’t want to happened … if others know what exactly happened, they might felt ” walao, like that also can angry ah ? “
before last night, one of those days, my dad asked me whether I will feel bored and sad to leave home for KL, I thought I will, really, but after last night, I think that I should be EXTREMELY EXCITED to leave for IMU … because I will be totally free from all those scolding …
discovered one thing recently : I tend to drive faster on road whenever I heard any scolding, nagging, or thought of those unhappy things … gonna stop myself from driving if this situation continues …
well, hopefully our God will bless us all … hopefully …
Monday, 3 January 2005
thanks son~
so far not yet knowing what to write … but such a rare chance to get online, so at least have to type something …
firstly thanks my son for changing the template for me, as this template make my eyes more comfortable …
yesterday went to red box with my brother and my sister-in-law, haha, I am simply a 1000 watt light bulb last night … but fortunately, after having dinner at secret recipe ( xiaoxin working there ^^ ) I saw Kaixuan and he accompanied me walk form the shopping complex to the B2 parking lots, finally felt that ” I also got someone beside me ” !! Haha, suppose my future sister-in-law might misunderstood kaixuan as my anata, but anyway, I like this ^^
but so sad, this morning my brother had a quarrel with my dad AGAIN … the atmosphere in my house became so weird … dislike it dislike it …
and also … someone offended me and made me feel so sad last night … somehow I am not so important to him, while I treat him as my most intimate buddy … sad … sad …
Many of my friends had already been enrolled to Rahman and tomorrow they will be going to there. Soon no one will be there for me …
firstly thanks my son for changing the template for me, as this template make my eyes more comfortable …
yesterday went to red box with my brother and my sister-in-law, haha, I am simply a 1000 watt light bulb last night … but fortunately, after having dinner at secret recipe ( xiaoxin working there ^^ ) I saw Kaixuan and he accompanied me walk form the shopping complex to the B2 parking lots, finally felt that ” I also got someone beside me ” !! Haha, suppose my future sister-in-law might misunderstood kaixuan as my anata, but anyway, I like this ^^
but so sad, this morning my brother had a quarrel with my dad AGAIN … the atmosphere in my house became so weird … dislike it dislike it …
and also … someone offended me and made me feel so sad last night … somehow I am not so important to him, while I treat him as my most intimate buddy … sad … sad …
Many of my friends had already been enrolled to Rahman and tomorrow they will be going to there. Soon no one will be there for me …
Saturday, 1 January 2005
happy new year~
haha, 29 more minutes to go for our wonderful year 2005 ~ well, thinking science3 is having a party at my xifer’s house, feeling abit sad indeed … somehow I looked like NOT MADE IN SCIENCE3 … but anyway, knowing that everyone is safe and still can get fun at someone’s house, it’s already a big gift for me, at least my family, my friends, my buddies … all are safe from the recent disaster. Actually I should be grateful already, at least I don’t have to get upset right before the new year, unlike those who lost their family …
today watched the entertainment news at Astro ( discovered that ? I watch TV everyday ^^ ), it was the zhui1 si1 hui4 for Anita Mui, her disciples, friends, family all attended to it. And after the news, the host of that programme said that, it is so sad to see the huge disaster before new year, and she thinks that, if Anita had been there, she would have already donated a sum of money or asked all her friends to organize a charity concert, or asked the public to donate the money and she with her fans will help to send all these money, clothes, foods etc to those country. Wondering, Anita at another world, knowing that the earthquake happened, will she blame herself for not staying for one more year, so that she can help all those victims, according to her character …
well, seemed like I have thought too much … 11:43pm right now … will go downstair to watch the live countdown concert at Taipei, through TV of course ^^ good night to everyone, and a very happy new year ~
today watched the entertainment news at Astro ( discovered that ? I watch TV everyday ^^ ), it was the zhui1 si1 hui4 for Anita Mui, her disciples, friends, family all attended to it. And after the news, the host of that programme said that, it is so sad to see the huge disaster before new year, and she thinks that, if Anita had been there, she would have already donated a sum of money or asked all her friends to organize a charity concert, or asked the public to donate the money and she with her fans will help to send all these money, clothes, foods etc to those country. Wondering, Anita at another world, knowing that the earthquake happened, will she blame herself for not staying for one more year, so that she can help all those victims, according to her character …
well, seemed like I have thought too much … 11:43pm right now … will go downstair to watch the live countdown concert at Taipei, through TV of course ^^ good night to everyone, and a very happy new year ~
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