my orientation week...

美好的星期六。就這樣被我睡掉了，哈哈~昨晚2點才上床睡覺，睡到今天早上10點才起床呢~~ 至於是什麽原因呢？說起來真的是好氣又好笑……

幾天前的星期一，就是我們P105( 意思：Pharmacy 1st intake in 2005 )的orientation，我們從星期一開始就要在每天下課后扮成不同的角色，參加晚上的活動，像我啊，呵呵，還真是第一次那麽“盛裝出席”學校的活動呢！

星期一：Frankenstein + 話劇表演

星期二：泰國女人 + 尋寳遊戲

星期三：男扮女裝成軍人 + 選美比賽

星期四：希臘神話人物 + 偵探遊戲

星期五：難民 + 對壘比賽 + 朦眼繞學校不知道多少圈

至於今天星期六嘛，會有頒獎典禮和晚上的BBQ呢！

其實這幾天真的玩得很開心，畢竟以前在寬中，大家都知道我是不可能和朋友在學校待到9點10點11點甚至12點的，只是啊昨晚的朦眼繞學校，真的是把我們折騰到~~ 學長們把我們的眼睛朦起來，然後帶我們一直走一直走，間中還有人一直對我們灑麵粉和水，還凃牛油啊還有什麽很噁心很臭的東西，還一直用手用樹枝搔我們癢，到最後把我們全部人丟在垃圾槽旁邊，趁我們各組在斗大聲喊口號的時候逃到樓上咖啡廳喝茶，直到晚上12點我們當中的一些人喊“take off the mask, the seniors ran away already”我們才恍然大悟，然後拖著真的很臭的身體去找我們的鞋啊眼鏡啊包包啊，我爸還因爲我到12點才開電話而把我罵到狗血淋頭呢！不過可憐的是我的orientation officer（O.O.)啦，大概是直屬學長之類的，因爲我被我爸罵到真的哭了出來，我的其中兩個O.O.一直在我旁邊“好啦乖啦，你叫你爸爸打來給我們，我們跟他解釋說不是你的錯，都是我們的錯好不好？好啦乖啦乖啦~~”然後我直接跟其中一個O.O.講“Anson，我現在很想打人”，他就真的很乖地自己癱在墻上說“你今晚要對我怎麽樣都行啦~”，哈哈，過後我還把全身垃圾味的身體靠在那個O.O.身上，讓他也中招，哈哈~~

所以啊，昨天回到家，頭啊臉啊身體啊都各洗了3遍，然後把衣服褲子裝進塑膠袋，丟進垃圾槽之後，都已經1:30am了，而且！我還沒有吃晚餐咧！！只好去沖一杯泡面當晚餐+宵夜，弄到來2點才睡覺！

雖然如此，說真的，我還真的很感激有這樣的orientation，讓我在一個星期内和大家都混得不錯，可能還有一些還是記不起名字，可是見到面總會很開心地微笑打招呼，而且像以前在寬中真的就沒有什麽機會可以和大家一起玩到那麽瘋…我只能說高中的生活和大學的生活真的很不一樣，但是我相信只要我願意，我的生活一定能夠一直這樣地多姿多彩！

理3的朋友大家也要加油哦！我還是那個一樣那麽愛大家的云姐~大家要為大家加油哦~~

again...coming...

yeah… me coming back again …

just attended to the briefing of computer lesson, and I finally got the password to log on the school pc and to get online broadly … unlike just now sneaking like a thief …

anyway, gotta tell everyone of you about my recent life … I reached KL at saturday afternoon, being fetched by my brother and his gf, after cleaning up my room and going to Carrefour to buy all those necessaries, they went back at 5pm. And you guys know, that’s the beginning of my nightmare …

the warden of the hostel told me that, there will be 2 more of my housemates will be checked in that night, so that means it will be 3 girls staying at the hostel. So I just waited.

Because I was just new to the place there, I am living at the 2oth floor, so I gotta use lifts right ? and I daren’t go downstair alone at the beginning, so I just sat in my room and waited after taking my bath…

6pm … 7pm … 8pm … 9pm … 10pm !!! It was already 10 but nobody came back !! I called the warden and told her that there was nobody except myself, a poor girl staying in the hostel alone, and she could just tell me to lock the door well (!!!) and so, I spent an extremely lonely night …

fortunately, there was one girl from Penang came and stayed overnight at hostel on Sunday, and her aunt was just too nice, packing the Sarawak’s Koh Loh Mee for me, a poor girl who supposed to have cereal and biscuit as dinner… so warm …

but in the night, when I went back to my own room, I was homesick !!! I missed my dad, my mum, my brother, …. I just cannot tahan whenever they called, and I gotta control myself from crying or else they would smell a rat through my voice …

has been moody for 2 days … suppose my sons will feel so sayang to me if they know their mummy was so cham4 !!! but until monday, I went for the registration at IMU, I got to know few friends and met few smart guys also and also my mood turned good ~~

today is already Wednesday and I have gradually known many of my classmates, though many of them I still can’t memorise their names well … but anyway I think I can be able to take care of myself well … sometimes have been thinking that I am so capable you know ? among all of us, I mean 4 housemates + myself, only I washed my own clothes leh, the others either send them to her auntie’s house or the laundry nearby … haha, yunjie bu4 shi4 gai4 de oh ~~

This week is just only the briefing of all of our lessons and activities to have, we will start our lesson next week … since Monday I got 13 ” student NOTES ” , not textbooks, I have been worrying that I might not catch up with my classmates, where many of them looked so smart and diligent in studying … anyway, I will just go ahead, will buck up for sure !!

everyone of you must give me the full support yeah ?? Loves you all ~~ good day.

at IMU...

yeah such a long time I didn’t post on my blog … wondering anyone missed me …

oh yeah, I am now in the library at IMU, surfing net and typing blog … but I can’t access to my mailbox …God knows what happened to it …

anyway will keep updating my infomation …. miss you guys THAT much …

nice, sad though...

一篇讓我很震撼的文章……不是因爲什麽文筆好啦，詞句優美啦什麽的，只是因爲…相似點太多了吧

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曾經想過如果我不是我，

我不用煩惱我現在的煩惱。

如果不曾遇上你，

那麼生活將是平淡如水更加枯燥乏味。

如果不曾知道你是誰，

那麼我的心裡不會多了一個名字。

如果不曾凝視你的眼神，

那麼孤寂的心怎可能加快跳動。

因為喜歡了你，

所以我成了一塊玻璃般不堪一擊，

我害怕失去你而摔落地，

換來粉身碎骨，

弄得遍體鱗傷，

或許我想得太多，

問得太多，

說得太多，

無論如何也明白不到你的心，

難過的寂夜裡，

總是格外安靜，

我聽見了自己柔弱的呼吸。

遺下悵惘與哀傷伴我進入眠夜，

閉起疲倦的雙眼，

我還是看見你不能抹滅掉的笑容。

我究竟，

還要在這裡徘徊多久呢？

我究竟，

仍要在這裡停滯多久 呢？

什麼時候才能夠走出來，

嚐嚐屬於我的藍天與白雲，

我怕到時候，

我已經再沒有能力了。

我最大的希望，

不是要與你一起，

而是看見你可以得到的快樂，

畢竟我心中只有你，

我只為你而爭取，

義無反顧為你作無條件的犧牲。

女生總是如此，

為了一個莫名其妙的感覺而付出，

甚至可以放下一切也在所不辭，

積極的甘心情願的去展開一場沒有把握的追逐，

根本沒有人可以保証我一定不會受傷，

不會遇上瀕臨懸崖般的危險。

有時候對自己說：

如果不曾遇上你，

那麼在這個時候，

我可以安心的輕鬆的入夢。

如果不曾知道你是誰，

那麼我不會因為要愛著你而背起沉重的負擔。

如果不曾凝視你的眼神，

那麼我已封閉的心怎麼可能失去城池。

因為太愛你，

我將埋怨恨恨的忘記，

只知道我不能否決自己內心想說什麼，

如果我不在乎你，

我又怎麼會痛呢？

Happy Chinese New Year~~

Hello everyone reading my blog,

a very Happy Chinese New Year to all of you, hopefully this new year will bring you alot of laughters and happiness !!myself …. actually I didn’t ask for too much. I just want my family members always stay healthy and happy , and I will do very well in my studies, and all my friends be very very happy ~~~ not too much isn’t it ??

again, A very happy and prosperous Chinese New Year ~~

well...

Well, just now went to see my son’s blog … felt ashamed seeing him type so much while myself is getting lazy to type blog … while in another point of view, you can’t blame me for not posting blog so frequently, because my life is stuffed with my dad, mum, bro, computer, television, and recently, my chemistry handouts ^^ I don’t know what can I write about them …

By the way, thinking of the reason that I can’t online last night, I am gonna crazy again ~~~

Well, that’s how the story begins :

Yesterday, at the evening, my dad suddenly said that he wanted to go to the new house to stay overnight, and of course, my mum and I were not going to object to it, since that doesn’t matter to us. And so we packed up our things hurriedly and got onto the car to go to the new house.
When we reached there, my dad said that he had headache and wanted to take a nap. And so he just went to sleep and I also got the chance to ask xiaohei to come over my house. After chatting with xiaohei I felt very happy, because such a long time I didn’t see him, and I was supposed to be in very good mood also , BUT …….

After a while my dad woke up. Xiaohei left after addressing my dad. And my dad said that he wanted to go out for dinner, while my mum and I thought that he was too sick to drive. Anyway, just follow his instruction, since he easily get angry whenever he’s sick.

We went out for the dinner, smoothly, nothing happened. As I thought ” yeah, finally nothing happened and we came home safely, without being scolded” , SH**, bad things did happen.

On the way going back home, there was a block in front of us, seemed like the Malays were going to get married the next day and set up the tent. And so, we turned a big round to go home.

When my dad was going to drive into our house, he couldn’t make it successfully just because the direction is different from the usual we drive home. And then, the tyre crashed with our own gate and bursted !

Ok, so far my story goes. Do you think that it’s my fault causing the accident ? while my dad himself drove at the other’s lane and he gotta avoid the coming cars, and so he turned to the direction of getting in of my house, earlier than he supposed to, and caused the crash ??
AND YET, he blamed me for not pressing the remote control earlier, as he thought that if I did so earlier he won’t have meet the coming car and he won’t turned the car into the house before he supposed to do so !!!!!

My God ~~~ what should I say then ??? I don’t know also … this is completely ridiculous!!! but What can I say ? NOTHING !!!

Well currently, my mood is still affected by it. Had better not offend me these few days …

Beware of it !

04-02-2005

again, I am tired to think of a title for this post …

yesterday was intending to post something here, but thinking that I really have nothing to announce or something to share with you guys … so don’t really want to post something meaningless …

but today I am not going to post something happy too … because today my house … sigh, my dad’s scolding time again ~~

Just because today my brother did something wrong … and my dad just kept scolding and scolding … I really HATE it I can say. I don’t like the atmosphere of my house whenever my dad scolds people. Really had the urge to run away from home sometimes. But anyway I am going to leave for KL soon …

but I was just wondering, will I be very very very lonely when I am in KL and even missed my daddy’s voice of scolding people …. hopefullly not.

Yawn ~~~ gotta sleep soon. Last night slept only at 4:30am because I was waiting for the transfer of one file, from my Taiwan friend, good night everyone.

ZZzzzzzzzzzz~~~

02-02-2004 some thought …

昨天晚上……

看了蔡康永主持的真情指數，來賓是周丹薇，一位據説很特別的前藝人，現在完全退居幕後，從事花店的生意。

我很喜歡看真情指數，因爲我覺得錄影棚裏的氣氛和蔡康永的主持功力，很容易讓藝人在熒光幕前展現出真實的一面。雖然我在這之前並不認識周丹薇，可是我還是決定坐在電視機前觀看。

像平常的一樣，主持人和來賓聊了很多事，還包括周丹薇的父母親。周（簡稱）說她一直很記憶猶新的一件事，就是她的父親病危的時候，聲音變得很薄弱，幾乎發不出任何的聲音，而母親也得了一種病，因爲就醫被拖延，所以導致耳朵近乎聼不見。每天父親總會像撕裂了喉嚨一樣，用力地想發出聲音讓母親聽見，而母親也一直很努力地在聼。看在周丹薇的眼裏，天地下沒有什麽比這個更慘了……

“父親過世的百日，母親因爲腹痛進了醫院，當天是耶誕節的晚上。那個醫生替母親檢查過之後告訴我‘周小姐，我真的沒有把握能治好你的母親’，我當時真的嚇呆了，好象是因爲白血球過多而導致腹痛的。那個晚上，我站在醫院大廳門口，對著天問“老天你真的要對我這麽殘忍嗎？你已經把我的父親帶走了，在我真正懂得什麽是孝順的時候，你就要把我的母親也帶走嗎？” ……孝順孝順，要做到‘孝’很容易，可是要做到‘順’真的不是一件很容易的事…………”

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看了這段之後，我很認真的回想我有沒有對父母親做到“孝順”呢？我自認我是一個有孝心的孩子，我一直都認爲父母把我養大，將來他們老了，照顧他們本來就是天經地義的事，那些抛棄父母的人是我最爲不齒的！我絕對相信我自己將來一定可以讓父母安享晚年，至少我會願意去這麽做。可是像周丹薇說的，‘孝’很容易，可是‘順’就真的很難了……

我從小就很聽話，長大之後我也自認沒有做過讓父母很傷心很傷心的事，可是我總是會有意的做一些小動作來表示對父母所做的安排的不滿。我總是認爲他們不應該逼我做一些我不想做的事，可是往往父母親都是為我好……雖然，我到現在仍然常常會不順著父母的意思……

可能我真的還沒有長大吧！我總是一再地想要脫離父母的管束，想要自己到外面看看這個花花世界……希望到時候看遍了世界的我，能夠想通這一切，可以真正地做到“孝順”……希望這不需要太昂貴的代價……

all the best to myself. and good day to everyone.

sth to share...

today … was in bad mood actually … but after chatting with one of my friends, hongming’s fans, my mood become so peaceful … this is some of what she wrote to me …

唉…為情所困的小女子…
愈是藍藍時…
愈要想得開…
當要鑽牛角尖時…
別忘了正面思考一下
我是世上獨一無二的..
人生如此漫長..
我一定會遇到更好的..
自信的女人..是最有媚力的..
朝著自己選擇的路..
大步的邁向前..
幸福的康莊大道就在妳面前了~~

well, felt so nice to read this … you know ? these few days I have been very moody, but thanks to hongming’s fans, who always encourage me and ask me to look at the bright side …

sometimes … friends can really be very very important … when I can’t meet science3’s friends, I still have them …

and also, today happened to pay attention to one of Nicholas Teo’s songs, ONLY ONE, and I think it’s very optimistic and directly affected my mood. Currently I felt very peaceful, and seemed like I have really ease my mind, at least I won’t always be in bad mood …

share with you guys too … the lyrics attached I love the last paragraph the most !!

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ONLY ONE – Nicholas Teo

你总是在迷乱的时候心情摇摆
一冲动就躲在那伤痛苦海
他所要的无非是一种自由自在
恨不能将快乐都拥在心怀
我明白感情的结果谁都无法安排
错过就不要再异想天开
在寂寞背后踩着一片憧憬地带
我怎么能让你还孤单存在
我的歌在你的耳边所以响起来
是因为我不想再活得不痛快
我相信像这样的感觉其实不太坏
你喜欢我就不会停下来
让世界更精彩
让希望的火焰在你心中烧起来
没有人将真爱在一念之间出卖
让感动和依赖在你心中留下来
没有人会无奈让自己受伤害
让希望的火焰在你心中烧起来
没有人将真爱在一念之间出卖
让掌声跟喝彩在你身边留下来
你要相信自己是 only one

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good day to everyone.

sth sweet ~~

this is what I have copied from my friend’s blog, shiang, who is also the super big fans of Hong ming …

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我愛你的房間 有我喜歡軟軟的床

我愛你的家人 和我的家人一樣有愛的感覺

我愛你的味道 有我喜歡香香的CK

我愛你的身高 讓我有小鳥依人的感覺

我愛你的執著 就算你不在我身邊我也不覺得失落

我愛你的體貼 有你在身邊我不怕生病

我愛你的負責 你說過的話總是說到做到

我愛你的浪漫 你不會忽略到任何一個節日

我愛你的溫柔 有你輕輕的拍背我總是睡的很香

我愛你的細心 我說過的事情 你總是會一一記下

我愛你的西裝 你穿西裝的樣子很迷人

我愛你的專情 你不會讓我擔心 沒有女生可以接近你

我愛你的善良 義不容辭的幫助別人

我愛你的聰明 你懂很多東西可以教我很多東西

我愛你的溺愛 我想做的事情 你總是會順著我

我愛你的寬容 縱使我害你失去很多 你還是捨不得怪我

我愛你的在乎 不管做什麼事情都會第一個想到我

我愛你的單純 我喜歡不抽菸不喝酒不賭博的你

我愛你的堅持 什麼事情都要做到最好給我最好的

我愛你的關心 只要我有任何一點不對勁 就能察覺

我愛你的努力 看到你為未來努力的神情 就很幸福

我愛你的髮

我愛你的眉

我愛你的鼻

我愛你的唇

我愛你的齒

我愛你的頸

我愛你的胸

我愛你的手

我愛你的腳

我愛你的………………………….

好多好多好多~~~

我竟然說不完~~~

很多人都說 這是熱戀期才會這麼甜蜜

但是我想 我們可以維持很久吧!!

看到你在我家 跟奶奶跟媽媽跟我的家人聊天

我覺得 有你好幸福喔!!!

我的家人認同你 你的家人認同我

未來離我們好像很近!!!

這是我要的幸福吧!!!這也是你要的幸福吧!!!

認識你真好!

讓我知道 愛情 其實可以很簡單又很真實的

我們不用相互猜忌 不用懷疑，對吧?!

我的MR. RIGHT!!

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so nice to read this … really sweet … though I haven’t found mine … hopefully shiang will always be that happy …

I met Albert today...

Just now was thinking what should I post today, because I thought nothing big happened today…

but I forgot ! Today I met Albert at the Lien Hoe Complex. He was selling bak4 gua1 there and I thought he has already gone to KL !

We chatted for a while, well actually just asking how’s each other’s life, because … my dad was beside me and if I kept on chatting with him, my dad will treat him as his future son-in-law, I don’t really want to put such a handsome guy into HARM, haha~

haha, felt so nice after seeing him, as my son also said that, I will be in good mood whenever I see handsome guys, haha~ but … this good mood only last for few hours … after I woke up from my nap … sigh …

listening to Nicholas’s CD … zhang1 dong4 liang2 … love his songs recently … his songs always let people feel a bit moody, but not too sad … suits my recent mood. Anyway, hopefully everyone arounds me will always be happy …

good day to everyone. good night too.